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It’s one year since I found out my abuser got arrested. Wow time goes so quick, many depressive episodes, anxiety, tears, but I feel like a better person all round.

it’s been hard, I want to thank you boomers for making me laugh ❤️
 
It’s one year since I found out my abuser got arrested. Wow time goes so quick, many depressive episodes, anxiety, tears, but I feel like a better person all round.

it’s been hard, I want to thank you boomers for making me laugh ❤
I’m sorry to hear you were abused, but it sounds like the piece of s**t got what was coming. The most important thing is you’re feeling better.
 
I’m sorry to hear you were abused, but it sounds like the piece of sh*t got what was coming. The most important thing is you’re feeling better.
Was naive and he was kind of a public figure.

thank you💕💕💕💕
 
It’s one year since I found out my abuser got arrested. Wow time goes so quick, many depressive episodes, anxiety, tears, but I feel like a better person all round.

it’s been hard, I want to thank you boomers for making me laugh ❤

You're a good egg Ligma and much stronger than you think. Keep up the good work mate.
 
I just want to say a big thank you to all who have been inboxing me and replying here.

I’m hanging in there, feeling good, this week has been a bit hard with sudden passings of an auntie on dads side, my mums auntie getting surgery to remove cancer and the last ever court case from my SA being held on Thursday where he (the second guy) is pleading guilty.

been a bit stressed and anxious because I thought I had to write a victim impact statement again but thank god I don’t.

Thank you guys so much, couldn’t ask for a better group of people to be on here with.

Ligma
 
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I just want to say a big thank you to all who have been inboxing me and replying here.

I’m hanging in there, feeling good, this week has been a bit hard with sudden passings of an auntie on dads side, my mums auntie getting surgery to remove cancer and the last ever court case from my SA being held on Thursday where he (the second guy) is pleading guilty.

been a bit stressed and anxious because I thought I had to write a victim impact statement again but thank god I don’t.

Thank you guys so much, couldn’t ask for a better group of people to be on here with.

Ligma

Great to hear you are coping.
 
I just want to say a big thank you to all who have been inboxing me and replying here.

I’m hanging in there, feeling good, this week has been a bit hard with sudden passings of an auntie on dads side, my mums auntie getting surgery to remove cancer and the last ever court case from my SA being held on Thursday where he (the second guy) is pleading guilty.

been a bit stressed and anxious because I thought I had to write a victim impact statement again but thank god I don’t.

Thank you guys so much, couldn’t ask for a better group of people to be on here with.

Ligma
I’m gonna be a noob and quote my own post but an update.

court is pushed back because the magistrate got the victim wrong 😐 it was supposed to be me. What a great justice system we have!! Ffs victims have no hope.
 

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I’m gonna be a noob and quote my own post but an update.

court is pushed back because the magistrate got the victim wrong 😐 it was supposed to be me. What a great justice system we have!! Ffs victims have no hope.
That sucks mate! Hope justice comes soon
 
I’m gonna be a noob and quote my own post but an update.

court is pushed back because the magistrate got the victim wrong 😐 it was supposed to be me. What a great justice system we have!! Ffs victims have no hope.
So sorry this happened to you. There were articles today about an abuser that got off because he had suffered enough through the system, so they blocked an appeal. We need to be better.
 

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Checked out of Bigfooty but never seen this thread and it may be the outlet i need.

Been a s**t couple of years with not just covid but alot of things.

I don't usually speak up as i feel like others have it worse than me so i don't say anything as to not basically look like a sook.

I just flat out don't feel good enough. In almost anything i do.
Feel like an ordinary dad, ordinary at work, ordinary friend and the biggest one is feeling like Mrs Bells is way to good for me and wasting her time. I worry she's going to wake up and leave me constantly. She isn't the most affectionate person either so seems I'm the one always going for a hug and stuff and i feel like she wouldn't care if i wasn't here.
Couple all those things together with the stress of work and hoping other workers are doing the right things and not doing anything they shouldn't with Mrs Bells hours cut and just general covid bullshit its bloody tough.
Worst bit is nothing to look forward too and no outlet being stuck at home.
All i do is sit at home and overthink about how I'm not really good at anything no matter how hard i try. And i was a bad overthinker before i was handed all this extra time at home.


Like i said i don't have it as tough as others but that's what's happening with me and i cant shake it.

Thanks for reading. Feels good to put it out there to someone other than my brother who has basically saved me multiple times this year.
 

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Checked out of Bigfooty but never seen this thread and it may be the outlet i need.

Been a sh*t couple of years with not just covid but alot of things.

I don't usually speak up as i feel like others have it worse than me so i don't say anything as to not basically look like a sook.

I just flat out don't feel good enough. In almost anything i do.
Feel like an ordinary dad, ordinary at work, ordinary friend and the biggest one is feeling like Mrs Bells is way to good for me and wasting her time. I worry she's going to wake up and leave me constantly. She isn't the most affectionate person either so seems I'm the one always going for a hug and stuff and i feel like she wouldn't care if i wasn't here.
Couple all those things together with the stress of work and hoping other workers are doing the right things and not doing anything they shouldn't with Mrs Bells hours cut and just general covid bullshit its bloody tough.
Worst bit is nothing to look forward too and no outlet being stuck at home.
All i do is sit at home and overthink about how I'm not really good at anything no matter how hard i try. And i was a bad overthinker before i was handed all this extra time at home.


Like i said i don't have it as tough as others but that's what's happening with me and i cant shake it.

Thanks for reading. Feels good to put it out there to someone other than my brother who has basically saved me multiple times this year.

Hey HELLSBELLS. Sounds like you are having a tough time and I can definitely relate to parts of what you are saying. I'm not an expert but what I can share is based on my own experiences over the past few months and those with my son over the past few years. It sounds like you need some help.

I recently started seeing a psychologist thinking I was okay and just needed to work through the impact of some pretty big life events/changes in the past few years. A real sign for me is that I had gone from sleeping 7 or 8 hours a night to maybe getting 3 or 4. When I sat in the chair and started talking it became clear that I had a bit to work through.

What I learnt from the process is that it is tough to get into to see someone at the moment. Therapists are in big demand. It really is worth persisting though. I would say start at your GP and have a discussion about how you're feeling and how it is impacting your life. It sounds to me like it wouldn't be unlikely that they would make a diagnosis of anxiety and possibly depression. A diagnosis is good because they will put you on a mental health treatment plan which unlocks a year's worth of therapy for you that is covered by Medicare. The GP will have a network of therapists they trust and can refer you to as well.

I know you feel like you don't have it as tough as others but it is tough for you, and if you don't look after yourself then none f those things you are worried about will get resolved.

My strong advice would be pick up the phone today and make that appointment with your GP.

Hope things get better for you soon.
 
Checked out of Bigfooty but never seen this thread and it may be the outlet i need.

Been a sh*t couple of years with not just covid but alot of things.

I don't usually speak up as i feel like others have it worse than me so i don't say anything as to not basically look like a sook.

I just flat out don't feel good enough. In almost anything i do.
Feel like an ordinary dad, ordinary at work, ordinary friend and the biggest one is feeling like Mrs Bells is way to good for me and wasting her time. I worry she's going to wake up and leave me constantly. She isn't the most affectionate person either so seems I'm the one always going for a hug and stuff and i feel like she wouldn't care if i wasn't here.
Couple all those things together with the stress of work and hoping other workers are doing the right things and not doing anything they shouldn't with Mrs Bells hours cut and just general covid bullshit its bloody tough.
Worst bit is nothing to look forward too and no outlet being stuck at home.
All i do is sit at home and overthink about how I'm not really good at anything no matter how hard i try. And i was a bad overthinker before i was handed all this extra time at home.


Like i said i don't have it as tough as others but that's what's happening with me and i cant shake it.

Thanks for reading. Feels good to put it out there to someone other than my brother who has basically saved me multiple times this year.
Hey, you’re not a sook to speak up its a very brave thing and I’m proud that you have chosen to speak out about it. It’s hard but it’s good.

you are good enough❤️ Learn to love yourself because we are all unique, you may feel that you’re ordinary but you’re kids think you're the best dad in the world. (I’m really bad at giving advice) but embrace your imperfections, tell yourself “I am good enough”.


I think that website could help 💕 you can always message me anytime if you need to talk
 

HELLSBELLS

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Hey HELLSBELLS. Sounds like you are having a tough time and I can definitely relate to parts of what you are saying. I'm not an expert but what I can share is based on my own experiences over the past few months and those with my son over the past few years. It sounds like you need some help.

I recently started seeing a psychologist thinking I was okay and just needed to work through the impact of some pretty big life events/changes in the past few years. A real sign for me is that I had gone from sleeping 7 or 8 hours a night to maybe getting 3 or 4. When I sat in the chair and started talking it became clear that I had a bit to work through.

What I learnt from the process is that it is tough to get into to see someone at the moment. Therapists are in big demand. It really is worth persisting though. I would say start at your GP and have a discussion about how you're feeling and how it is impacting your life. It sounds to me like it wouldn't be unlikely that they would make a diagnosis of anxiety and possibly depression. A diagnosis is good because they will put you on a mental health treatment plan which unlocks a year's worth of therapy for you that is covered by Medicare. The GP will have a network of therapists they trust and can refer you to as well.

I know you feel like you don't have it as tough as others but it is tough for you, and if you don't look after yourself then none f those things you are worried about will get resolved.

My strong advice would be pick up the phone today and make that appointment with your GP.

Hope things get better for you soon.


Thanks for that. I think i have to definitely do something. It doesn't seem to go away even when i think it has its still there waiting for a spark to turn it into a fire. The hardest part is being told you're loved and not believing it. Sounds so stupid but when I'm told i don't believe it because i don't know how anyone could.

Thanks
 

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Hey, you’re not a sook to speak up its a very brave thing and I’m proud that you have chosen to speak out about it. It’s hard but it’s good.

you are good enough❤ Learn to love yourself because we are all unique, you may feel that you’re ordinary but you’re kids think you're the best dad in the world. (I’m really bad at giving advice) but embrace your imperfections, tell yourself “I am good enough”.


I think that website could help 💕 you can always message me anytime if you need to talk


Thanks so much. You're advice isn't bad i will have a read of this for sure and thanks for the offer to message. Same to you.

Hope you are also doing ok and i wish you all the best :)
 

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Thanks for that. I think i have to definitely do something. It doesn't seem to go away even when i think it has its still there waiting for a spark to turn it into a fire. The hardest part is being told you're loved and not believing it. Sounds so stupid but when I'm told i don't believe it because i don't know how anyone could.

Thanks

It doesn't sound stupid at all. You're not the only one going through these challenges and there are lots of people to support you. Even if you think it is not that bad at the moment still go and start the process of getting help now. It is harder to make that step when you are feeling really s**t.
 

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Thanks for that. I think i have to definitely do something. It doesn't seem to go away even when i think it has its still there waiting for a spark to turn it into a fire. The hardest part is being told you're loved and not believing it. Sounds so stupid but when I'm told i don't believe it because i don't know how anyone could.

Thanks


Hell's, when people see you hurting and struggling and tell you that pretty sure they mean it. Thank them and maybe ask them why they said it and you'll find the little things you do and give no second thought too are the things that they appreciate / love the most.
 

HELLSBELLS

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Hell's, when people see you hurting and struggling and tell you that pretty sure they mean it. Thank them and maybe ask them why they said it and you'll find the little things you do and give no second thought too are the things that they appreciate / love the most.


Thanks Hojuman, I will do that. Its a really awful spot to be in. You hear them say it, you do feel it, but the little voice in your head tells you it can be true because you see no value in yourself so how could anyone else. But i will do what you said. Will try anything atm.
 
Checked out of Bigfooty but never seen this thread and it may be the outlet i need.

Been a sh*t couple of years with not just covid but alot of things.

I don't usually speak up as i feel like others have it worse than me so i don't say anything as to not basically look like a sook.

I just flat out don't feel good enough. In almost anything i do.
Feel like an ordinary dad, ordinary at work, ordinary friend and the biggest one is feeling like Mrs Bells is way to good for me and wasting her time. I worry she's going to wake up and leave me constantly. She isn't the most affectionate person either so seems I'm the one always going for a hug and stuff and i feel like she wouldn't care if i wasn't here.
Couple all those things together with the stress of work and hoping other workers are doing the right things and not doing anything they shouldn't with Mrs Bells hours cut and just general covid bullshit its bloody tough.
Worst bit is nothing to look forward too and no outlet being stuck at home.
All i do is sit at home and overthink about how I'm not really good at anything no matter how hard i try. And i was a bad overthinker before i was handed all this extra time at home.


Like i said i don't have it as tough as others but that's what's happening with me and i cant shake it.

Thanks for reading. Feels good to put it out there to someone other than my brother who has basically saved me multiple times this year.

Chin up, mate, you're a legend on this board and you are good enough.

Some good advice from others here, seems like it would be a good move to take some on board just to get you back in the right headspace.
 
Checked out of Bigfooty but never seen this thread and it may be the outlet i need.

Been a sh*t couple of years with not just covid but alot of things.

I don't usually speak up as i feel like others have it worse than me so i don't say anything as to not basically look like a sook.

I just flat out don't feel good enough. In almost anything i do.
Feel like an ordinary dad, ordinary at work, ordinary friend and the biggest one is feeling like Mrs Bells is way to good for me and wasting her time. I worry she's going to wake up and leave me constantly. She isn't the most affectionate person either so seems I'm the one always going for a hug and stuff and i feel like she wouldn't care if i wasn't here.
Couple all those things together with the stress of work and hoping other workers are doing the right things and not doing anything they shouldn't with Mrs Bells hours cut and just general covid bullshit its bloody tough.
Worst bit is nothing to look forward too and no outlet being stuck at home.
All i do is sit at home and overthink about how I'm not really good at anything no matter how hard i try. And i was a bad overthinker before i was handed all this extra time at home.


Like i said i don't have it as tough as others but that's what's happening with me and i cant shake it.

Thanks for reading. Feels good to put it out there to someone other than my brother who has basically saved me multiple times this year.

Mate, I'll bet my bottom dollar your kids don't think your "ordinary". Give them a hug, tell them you love them and I bet they push away and laugh, call you a donut or something. Make it fun, silly fun, barriers melt, smiles come back.
 
HELLSBELLS you're a ripping bloke mate.

Went through a similar line of thought as a you a few years ago. It's tough that sometimes we're our own worst enemy.

From my own experience, went and saw a psychologist and really glad I did. Opened my mind up to new ways of dealing with stuff and I'm in a much better place now.

You'll get there mate. :thumbsu:
 

HELLSBELLS

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HELLSBELLS you're a ripping bloke mate.

Went through a similar line of thought as a you a few years ago. It's tough that sometimes we're our own worst enemy.

From my own experience, went and saw a psychologist and really glad I did. Opened my mind up to new ways of dealing with stuff and I'm in a much better place now.

You'll get there mate. :thumbsu:


Thanks mate.

Have made the first step. Spoke to Mrs Bells. Have a Doc appointment.

Cant wait to sort myself out. Been exhausting living like this.

Thanks to you all for the support too means alot and has helped me massively.
 
Thanks mate.

Have made the first step. Spoke to Mrs Bells. Have a Doc appointment.

Cant wait to sort myself out. Been exhausting living like this.

Thanks to you all for the support too means alot and has helped me massively.
So proud!! Well done!!
 
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