- Jul 9, 2010
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This is in sincerity. Not a piss take.
A lot of my life I've being a pretty emotional person.
At about age 16 my old man kind of said to me as much as I loved sport, as well as I went, it probably wasn't good for me. I hated my mates after games, I grew grudges, I was a good sport and fair but could only ever play a great game when I was emotionally charged.
That manifested in a few ways and I lost a fair majority of my friends in high school as a result of anger. I'd always get in jumper punches during kick to kick at lunch time (usually with other hot headed little pricks) and lashed out a few times. This is probably why I'm a contrarian and have no issue acting the way I do on this forum.
I don't care if lots of people don't like me.
Lately when I've been on the sauce I've been coming home absolutely seething if someone doesn't go my way. But I never get in fights or anything close. If someone steps on me or spills my drink I'll say something to them. It's an internalised anger.
At the same time, I get pretty emotional in general. I'm a lot less anxious then I used to be but I feel really good when, uh, good things happen. Elation is easy to come by. And when I'm on the sauce I can feel extremely happy too – my mates could probably attest to that.
I'm just an emotional person in general, but can also be pretty nonplussed and regular, but the issue with it is that the negative emotions come out way too strongly. I say things to mates I shouldn't and the crux of their issues with me is my own behaviour sometimes.
I do not have any actual issue. Borderline Personality Disorder et al isn't what's going on. I feel good about myself, I don't get bored more than anyone else, I don't engage in binge drinking or eating or drug use, I'm not an addictive person, and I don't get depression let alone self harm. I'm just an angry mother*er.
I am not five beers deep. I'm not taking the piss. I'm just seriously looking for help or anyone who relates to this. I'm sure there'll be a correlation with height and anger here, too!
A lot of my life I've being a pretty emotional person.
At about age 16 my old man kind of said to me as much as I loved sport, as well as I went, it probably wasn't good for me. I hated my mates after games, I grew grudges, I was a good sport and fair but could only ever play a great game when I was emotionally charged.
That manifested in a few ways and I lost a fair majority of my friends in high school as a result of anger. I'd always get in jumper punches during kick to kick at lunch time (usually with other hot headed little pricks) and lashed out a few times. This is probably why I'm a contrarian and have no issue acting the way I do on this forum.
I don't care if lots of people don't like me.
Lately when I've been on the sauce I've been coming home absolutely seething if someone doesn't go my way. But I never get in fights or anything close. If someone steps on me or spills my drink I'll say something to them. It's an internalised anger.
At the same time, I get pretty emotional in general. I'm a lot less anxious then I used to be but I feel really good when, uh, good things happen. Elation is easy to come by. And when I'm on the sauce I can feel extremely happy too – my mates could probably attest to that.
I'm just an emotional person in general, but can also be pretty nonplussed and regular, but the issue with it is that the negative emotions come out way too strongly. I say things to mates I shouldn't and the crux of their issues with me is my own behaviour sometimes.
I do not have any actual issue. Borderline Personality Disorder et al isn't what's going on. I feel good about myself, I don't get bored more than anyone else, I don't engage in binge drinking or eating or drug use, I'm not an addictive person, and I don't get depression let alone self harm. I'm just an angry mother*er.
I am not five beers deep. I'm not taking the piss. I'm just seriously looking for help or anyone who relates to this. I'm sure there'll be a correlation with height and anger here, too!