Re the bolded, you don't need to explain (to me at least) the devastating effect the loss of a pet can have on you, especially when you are already dealing with mental health battles. They are loving and loved family members and their passing leaves an enormous hole in your heart and your life.I opened up months ago on here after a loss (just a pet but was the final straw in a sh*t 5 year patch) and have steadily gotten worse since. I've been crying out for help from my highly recommended doctor (useless, everything is in the too hard basket) but thankfully, my partner and kids don't want to just brush it all aside and pretend I'll get better like that incompetent doctor.
Anyway, I've applied for a stint in rehab totally off my own back without any help to hopefully get over my recent alcohol dependence to just get by. But... As seems to be the usual way in which all these things go, it's been an absolute joke, with nobody ever returning calls or following up on these very simple tasks they assure me they will. Most of these issues are with so called professionals in the field just not giving 2 shits about what they constantly promise.
I can totally understand why many people just give up trying at all with such incompetent support out there and basically no real help. Its just a simple paying bloody job to most of these so called professionals living their happy lives without a care in the world.
I could offer the usual platitudes regarding your battles in trying to find the right support, but I know it may not help a lot. However, I have found from personal experience that persistence does eventually pay off in getting the right professional people in your life.
Take care mate. You may feel alone but, in reality, you aren't. Please remember that. I'm so pleased that you have family support.