Health Depression

[raskolnikov]

Been so tempted lately to just walk in front of a truck.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Been so tempted lately to just walk in front of a truck.

Please don’t do that!

Open up to whoever you need too mate! Life is an absolute shitshow but you only have one shot at it! Things will get better… I remind myself every single day

And now I’m reminding you

 

[PrancingPony]

My depression isn't anywhere near as bad as it used to be but there are days where it just flares up out of nowhere and it hits me like a truck.

Gotta love it.

 

[Run n Spread]

I apologise if this is not the right area of Big Footy but right now I just need somewhere to vent.

Just had my fortnightly job network appointment and it lasted 4 minutes and 43 minutes. I’ve been honest and upfront and telling them all of my needs to get a job. After my mental health breakdown, I think I’m ready to head back to the workplace. Part time, couple of hours a day and I said to them I need some help navigating those job websites and how many streamline my application. I said I need some help as I clearly cannot do this myself.

I’ve been going to them for 9 months now and the appointment today, a phone consultation lasted 4 minutes and 34 seconds. Office visits don’t last much longer, but I’m just running out of patience that I’m just a person on a list to get ticked off to fitful a government quota per week. They haven’t helped me. They don’t care but they tick a box to say they have meet their government tender obligations. They can **** off. This system in 2026 trying to help older Australian get back into the work force is ****ing useless, demeaning, embarrassing, condescending and downright disgusting.

**** them all.

Dont say that never ever say that.
Take it from me. Never ever express weakness. People will use and exploit you.
Just find something you can do bullshit through the application and do it.
I repeat never ever mention weakness or depression to anyone.
Places like here fine. Or a mate or 1 or 2 family members otherwise never.

 

[raskolnikov]

Does anyone else suffer from worst case scenario thinking? I'm going through it really badly at the moment because of the situation I'm in.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Does anyone else suffer from worst case scenario thinking? I'm going through it really badly at the moment because of the situation I'm in.

Yep! The smallest things turn into the world is falling apart.
It’s ****ed! I usually get past it and feel embarrassed for allowing shit to snowball in my brain but yeah….

 

[MP_]

Does anyone else suffer from worst case scenario thinking? I'm going through it really badly at the moment because of the situation I'm in.

I’m a negative thinker , habitually in most situations I always seem to think of the worst cases scenario then I just ruminate over it. For a while after I did my mind power course I would catch myself and not do it .

 

[Daniel6]

Does anyone else suffer from worst case scenario thinking? I'm going through it really badly at the moment because of the situation I'm in.

Yeah, I don’t think you are alone. I think it’s when people catastrophes events or things that have happened.

I think it’s quite common

 

[Daniel6]

Dont say that never ever say that.
Take it from me. Never ever express weakness. People will use and exploit you.
Just find something you can do bullshit through the application and do it.
I repeat never ever mention weakness or depression to anyone.
Places like here fine. Or a mate or 1 or 2 family members otherwise never.

Yeah, I’ve learnt that the hard way. People outside of my family they are now on a needs to know basis. They don’t get told anything and my cards are played very close to my chest.

 

[Run n Spread]

Yeah, I’ve learnt that the hard way. People outside of my family they are now on a needs to know basis. They don’t get told anything and my cards are played very close to my chest.

Yep also just breath 2 of the most useless words in the English language

 

[Angus Young]

Has anyone else felt like depression has brought out the worst version of themselves, and in turn affected their relationships with family and friends? Maybe the hardest part is how it changes the way you see yourself.

Well when it´s bad you isolate.

 

[Run n Spread]

Normal life just doesn't suit.
I accept it. Apparently we are somehow meant to live e the lifestyle and somehow survive in a bullshit world

 

[Run n Spread]

Well when it´s bad you isolate.

Im depressed as hell.
But what do you do?
Speak with anyone watch you be shot down.
All this r u ok is bullshit

 

[Seeds]

Life is not a shit show. There are amazing moments all around. You just have to see them for what they are and be thankful. Im not saying this to be an ar**%hole. Im saying it cos it works. No matter what life throws at you: gratitude, curiosity and awe works. But its up to you to decide whether to embrace this or not. It cant be forced upon you by others. You cant luck into it. Its a choice one must make.

 

[Angus Young]

Im depressed as hell.
But what do you do?
Speak with anyone watch you be shot down.
All this r u ok is bullshit

mate if it´s real bad and not getting better you got to try medication

don´t listen to people that say dont do that

you may just find the right one and it can literally change your life

 

[Run n Spread]

mate if it´s real bad and not getting better you got to try medication

don´t listen to people that say dont do that

you may just find the right one and it can literally change your life

Dont need it.
The world is simply built for early bird extroverts.
I like to sleep in and consider things. Plus I'm too introverted.
I peak at 11am work hard socialise than sleep.
What would medication do anyway?
I may as well go speak to a drug dealer that's what the medical profession seem to be now a days

 

[MP_]

I hit my lowest point in a long time last night, I had no idea how much my depression was affecting everyone around me. For years now I’ve been stuck in a rut and my recent back issues and constant pain had only compounded my mental state. Nothing hits harder than being told by people you love that they can’t deal with you anymore unless you can start to heal yourself. Here I was thinking I was dealing with my problems by myself and no one cared when in fact I had been pushing people away by being so intense with my own issues. I didn’t realise how empty I had been to people.

Years ago I was taught about mind power , I flew to New Zealand to embark on a journey to improve my mental health, at the time it was life changing. Today I opened a book on happiness written by John Kehoe who taught the mind power course. Part way through a section on gratitude I found the following which explains my life for the last 30 years, on and off.

“Too often instead of appreciating the numerous blessings of our life we get into the habit of focusing only on our problems. We complain that we’re not receiving what we think we should. The simple day to day pleasures which are always there for us are either ignored and taken for granted. We find ourselves feeling neglected, deprived, overwhelmed and stressed. When this happens we need to pull back and put it all in a larger perspective. We need to remind ourselves that many pleasurable moments exist each day in our life.

I’m not afraid to say I cried a lot after reading this, my entire mental health struggles revealed in one paragraph. Decades of suicidal ideation, self sabotaging, breakdowns and attempts to end it all ,all encapsulated in that paragraph. I wrote down today what is good in my life and what isn’t, the list of good things was ten times if not more than bad. Yet for someone like me I have spent my life ruminating on the bad. It’s a habit that’s forged itself into my subconscious, for 30 years now I’ve felt that I haven’t had a choice, I’ve just gone straight to the bad.

But not now, not today not ever again. My family needs me and I need them. I have to finally take control of my thoughts and not let the darkness in again, you only get so many chances at life and have to take it now.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I hit my lowest point in a long time last night, I had no idea how much my depression was affecting everyone around me. For years now I’ve been stuck in a rut and my recent back issues and constant pain had only compounded my mental state. Nothing hits harder than being told by people you love that they can’t deal with you anymore unless you can start to heal yourself. Here I was thinking I was dealing with my problems by myself and no one cared when in fact I had been pushing people away by being so intense with my own issues. I didn’t realise how empty I had been to people.

Years ago I was taught about mind power , I flew to New Zealand to embark on a journey to improve my mental health, at the time it was life changing. Today I opened a book on happiness written by John Kehoe who taught the mind power course. Part way through a section on gratitude I found the following which explains my life for the last 30 years, on and off.

“Too often instead of appreciating the numerous blessings of our life we get into the habit of focusing only on our problems. We complain that we’re not receiving what we think we should. The simple day to day pleasures which are always there for us are either ignored and taken for granted. We find ourselves feeling neglected, deprived, overwhelmed and stressed. When this happens we need to pull back and put it all in a larger perspective. We need to remind ourselves that many pleasurable moments exist each day in our life.

I’m not afraid to say I cried a lot after reading this, my entire mental health struggles revealed in one paragraph. Decades of suicidal ideation, self sabotaging, breakdowns and attempts to end it all ,all encapsulated in that paragraph. I wrote down today what is good in my life and what isn’t, the list of good things was ten times if not more than bad. Yet for someone like me I have spent my life ruminating on the bad. It’s a habit that’s forged itself into my subconscious, for 30 years now I’ve felt that I haven’t had a choice, I’ve just gone straight to the bad.

But not now, not today not ever again. My family needs me and I need them. I have to finally take control of my thoughts and not let the darkness in again, you only get so many chances at life and have to take it now.

Love to hear this mate