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This is just a once off I think to get a diagnosis so that I can continue with my mental health program. I have been seeing a psychotherapist I’ve seen her 3 times. I like her but she’s so hard to get into and so expensive, nearly 200 a session.
 

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Mines 170 with nothing back . As it’s a psychotherapist, only get some back if it’s a psychologist or psychiatrist.
 
Can't ****ing sleep. I need but can't. This is so ****ed. I don't want a psychiatrist don't want a GP just want to sleep. Don't even want to speak to anyone anymore. Don't care about anything just need rest Dont even want sleep.
 
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Perth gal said:
Thanks. I ended up going to the emergency department and they discharged me with a mental health team visiting me every couple of days. I have a psychiatrists appt tomorrow apparently, I’m still waiting to hear a time, really nervous as to what they are going to say and diagnose me with. I’m slowly coming to the realisation that I’m not normal mentally.
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Who is really? I'm not that's for sure. I'm nervous as well speaking to someone honestly about this. But due to certain circumstances beyond it hasn't been possible.
I don't even want to anymore. Just want to finish work (unavoidable today) then sleep. But every time I need to sleep something wakes me or someone is renovating next door or yelling.
I'm thinking I just get up and call a number. Tried that earlier and got put on hold. Maybe I just go drive somewhere thou nowhere in suburban Melbourne to go
 
Run n Spread said:
Who is really? I'm not that's for sure. I'm nervous as well speaking to someone honestly about this. But due to certain circumstances beyond it hasn't been possible.
I don't even want to anymore. Just want to finish work (unavoidable today) then sleep. But every time I need to sleep something wakes me or someone is renovating next door or yelling.
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pretty much the only reason I drink and do downers. I know it's not healthy but after close to 4 days no sleep sometimes it's easier to down a bottle of vodka than it is to try and sleep naturally.

For the most part I'm just used to not sleeping, but when the fatigue hits you boy does it hit hard.
 
Genghis Tron said:
pretty much the only reason I drink and do downers. I know it's not healthy but after close to 4 days no sleep sometimes it's easier to down a bottle of vodka than it is to try and sleep naturally.

For the most part I'm just used to not sleeping, but when the fatigue hits you boy does it hit hard.
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I hear you there. Time and place but I don't feel well physically and if I go full vodka I'm liable to do something stupid.
Just wish I could go somewhere to sleep a couple of days and freshen up. But not possible
 

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Genghis Tron said:
I wouldn't pull back if I were you. That's just me personally though. I find when I do it gives me an "out" to retreat further and only makes things worse.

I think it's natural to not trust your GPs. Can't say I have a relationship with mine.... Couldn't even tell you their name as I avoid going to the same one too often if at all anymore...

I'd stick with it mate. If anything it's a victory to beat that little voice that says "nah chuck it in, it's not working"

But that's all from my point of view, you might be completely different.
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Problem is I don't communicate well face to face or am not taken seriously so it ends up going wrong. I did try and speak to someone this year but got put on hold and circumstances this week means it's not possible. I don't want to put myself in that position again.
In the past I've been told I'm manipulative or have nothing to worry about or to snap out of it.
And look I'd rather just get on with things then go about my life and keep this private. But when you feel like you're going to die can't sleep or get out of bed and need to speak to someone and can't it hurts.
 
Is what it is thou. I need to get up. I figure I've got one more day before I crash and burn. I'll set up 2 days work if I need Thursday and Friday off.
I relate to what PG said. I want to just sit.
But stay well people it does suck. Hopefully better days ahead for you all
 
Run n Spread said:
I hear you there. Time and place but I don't feel well physically and if I go full vodka I'm liable to do something stupid.
Just wish I could go somewhere to sleep a couple of days and freshen up. But not possible
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I suppose I'm lucky in I can hold my substances pretty well. Basically just knocks me out coupled with pills. Sort of a last resort though. Again, its not a great decision but it is what it is.

Run n Spread said:
Problem is I don't communicate well face to face or am not taken seriously so it ends up going wrong. I did try and speak to someone this year but got put on hold and circumstances this week means it's not possible. I don't want to put myself in that position again.
In the past I've been told I'm manipulative or have nothing to worry about or to snap out of it.
And look I'd rather just get on with things then go about my life and keep this private. But when you feel like you're going to die can't sleep or get out of bed and need to speak to someone and can't it hurts.
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It's really important to keep in mind that to "normal" people, this/our type of behaviour is quite foreign. It's irrational and messy. It can certainly look manipulative, hell I feel manipulative some times. So being told that You're manipulative.... I wouldn't put much weight in.

Saying just snap out of it though, that's ****ed and anyone that says that to someone who is suffering clearly has no ****ing idea.

The main thing is that you've still got fight in you. You clearly recognise that there are issues and know steps need to be taken. Even just venting in here is a big step (in my eyes) you know? You aren't just laying down and letting it consume you, even if it feels that way. Just keep fighting. Any amount of fight is great in the face of the abyss. You can't be taken as long as there is any amount of fight so just keep on punching is really all I can say.
 
That goes for everyone.

If you're fighting, you're winning, even if you feel like you're drowning. Those little victories are incredibly important to acknowledge. They keep us anchored to reality. That reality being that we are stronger than our chemical imbalances and past traumas.

Our demons feed off that doubt. "am I slipping?" "I don't think I can carry on"... It's all bullshit and the demons don't deserve anything but a buckshot to the face. Don't feed them, keep moving forward.

Spend time with your pets if you have them. Talk to them. Spill your heart. They might not understand our language but they understand you. They'll be there for you in their own way.
 
I dont have a pet but fwiw the only thing that made me genuinely smile in 3 months was a little jack russel called scratchy- met him while out walking- hes such a sweetheart. Then on each walk going by his house was something to look forward to.
 
Shell said:
I dont have a pet but fwiw the only thing that made me genuinely smile in 3 months was a little jack russel called scratchy- met him while out walking- hes such a sweetheart. Then on each walk going by his house was something to look forward to.
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If you're in the position to have a pet and you would consider it may I recommend fostering an ex racing greyhound?

Absolutely amazing dogs. Perfect for those that are suffering. Very loyal, affectionate (in their own way) sleep most of the day, hypoallergenic, don't really smell, don't shed that much.

You can foster them at a month at a time, it gets them out of the kennels and gets them used to living in a forever home. It makes you feel good and it's amazing for them. They deserve it.

I've been fostering/adopting Greys since I was 16 and it's the best thing I do. Cannot recommend them enough.

Me and my hound go for walks for hours after midnight just wandering around the local wildlife reserve and it's great fun. Just me and him, no bad thoughts.
 

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Thats awesome :smilev1:

But nah my apartment is far too small for a dog (no outdoor space either). Cats are my favorite anyway, but i know me and i know i hate cat fur etc so just wouldnt want one.

Not to mention the added costs involved.

Am looking to do volunteer work with animals. I think that would be the perfect arrangment for me.
 
Shell said:
Thats awesome :smilev1:

But nah my apartment is far too small for a dog (no outdoor space either). Cats are my favorite anyway, but i know me and i know i hate cat fur etc so just wouldnt want one.

Not to mention the added costs involved.

Am looking to do volunteer work with animals. I think that would be the perfect arrangment for me.
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Fair enough. An apartment would be harder. I did forget to mention that they don't need a lot of space as they are just about the laziest dogs I've ever met. outdoor space would be good for toilet and all that but yeah I get you.

I know they used to (I'm pretty sure) accept volunteers, they might still. Vic GAP (greyhound adoption program) if you wanted to look at it. I think their main hub is up Seymour way so that might not suit you. There are other ex racing organisations that you could look at if you were interested in volunteering though. GAP is just the largest I'm pretty sure. I've done a bit of volunteer work at shelters and the like. Very rewarding. I tend to get pretty attached to all the pups though so get sad when they get adopted 😂

But they are lovely dogs. I'm sure they'd appreciate your time if you ended up giving it a go.
 
Perth gal said:
Thanks. I ended up going to the emergency department and they discharged me with a mental health team visiting me every couple of days. I have a psychiatrists appt tomorrow apparently, I’m still waiting to hear a time, really nervous as to what they are going to say and diagnose me with. I’m slowly coming to the realisation that I’m not normal mentally.
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There is no normal. It's ok to feel different to everyone else, in fact I believe that to be normal. There are plenty of people here to reach out to if you need a chat. You're not alone PG.

The way we are meant to live our lives are not the way we live our lives. We're not all perfect, we're not all having sunshine and lollipops and free vodka. It's ok to be down and its ok to cry and lean on a shoulder or 2, or 3 or 7.

Reach out for a hug. It's ok.
 
Shell said:
Nah i know grey hounds well- i watch all the animal shows on tv. Theyre just not for me.
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They weren't for me before I fostered one either. Thought I knew them. Was very wrong.

You've said no, that's the end of it, I'm not pushing, but they are the biggest surprise packet of all dogs I've ever come across. (family bred and showed various breeds, I've worked with various breeds)

Again, not pushing you in particular, just anyone that might be interested. I'll sing their praise from the rooftops for hours on end given the chance 😂
 

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