It's ****ed up for sure. I'm hoping people take hope from the UK where restrictions are pretty much gone. It shows that we can get back to normal.
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Marklar_33
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Having an up phase, the worst part is waiting for the arse to fall out of it again but I’ve had a few things test me and I’ve deflected them. Riding the wave I guess!
Two distinct parts of my life, business and personal. Business is flying, personal is, well, not. So I’m throwing my energy into work as much as I can. Hopefully that helps. Also helps I’m living the free life in Tassie. I really feel for anyone in Vic and NSW right now
MP_
I am the devil that you forgot
I’m struggling with hating myself and the things I’ve done in the past. I relive them in my head constantly and I can’t let them go. I’m tired of pretending I’m ok . I literally have no friends to talk to. So I talk to my mind and it’s a constant battle.
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Upgrayedd
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Im on/off, My self worth is pretty low still. Had a horrid weekend
I've decided to get another job in the same Field. Ive worked with a guy whos straight up lied about something to my boss and my boss has pulled me up on it friday. Said thats absolute horse-s**t but I dont want to deal with almost bitchy behaviour behind my back. Put me in an absolute funk Friday
Saturday had a date no show, Had been talking for a little while, she cancelled morning last saturday, this saturday gone she just msged me 10m before and said she had just woken up and had a bad headache, asked if she was ok, wanted to change the time, ended up saying just hit me up if you want to try again, Left on *Seen*
Rough. However i've found something in strength training which is really something which is great to focus on and a great little community ive found as well
I've decided to get another job in the same Field. Ive worked with a guy whos straight up lied about something to my boss and my boss has pulled me up on it friday. Said thats absolute horse-s**t but I dont want to deal with almost bitchy behaviour behind my back. Put me in an absolute funk Friday
Saturday had a date no show, Had been talking for a little while, she cancelled morning last saturday, this saturday gone she just msged me 10m before and said she had just woken up and had a bad headache, asked if she was ok, wanted to change the time, ended up saying just hit me up if you want to try again, Left on *Seen*
Rough. However i've found something in strength training which is really something which is great to focus on and a great little community ive found as well
Electronic_Renaissance
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Shocking, I've had this job thing before. Just take the positive side, is this a place you want to work for?
I assume this is the online dating? 10min before? Forget her, I'm sure this isn't the first time she's pulled this stunt.
Look on the bright side, you've dodged two bullets.
Had a ****ed up day. Sad and lonely all day. Had a fight with my son. Then couldn’t get on a very important zoom call and felt so angry and disappointed that I jumped in the car and ignored all the calls and messages inquiring why I wasn’t on.
I just wish I wasn’t here.
I just wish I wasn’t here.
Marklar_33
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I’m spent. I’ve had enough. There’s no light at the end of this tunnel. I’m out of hope
What’s going on.?
I feel better today.
Same here. I just don’t care much anymore. I’m finding it very hard to be happy about anything.
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Same here. Had enough, any little thing sends me off. Not physically or anything. I just don't want to get up in the morning as I just think "what next?".
Marklar_33
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I was left for another man, after 22 years, then she came back to me and did it all again. That was a year ago on Fathers Day (the second time) and I thought I’d move on but it’s just not going to happen. I’ve made several attempts on my life but fortunately I suppose I have no idea what I’m doing and keep messing it up. Maybe the self sabotage is deliberate. I have a 4 year old daughter I don’t want to leave behind but when I get down I don’t care. Drugs haven’t helped. Psychs haven’t helped. Friends are over it, I don’t care for their opinion anyway as they’re shared friends, all married with young families because that’s who you hang out with when you’re married with a young family. As I’ve said previously, business is through the roof. Sadly, I work alone with my thoughts. I keep pushing through, trying to show her that I’m successful and I’m worth it. That’s my only motivation. It’s in vain. I keep holding out hope that simply doesn’t exist but when that hope runs out…
Marklar_33
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Put back two full days work last week because I couldn’t physically get up
Upgrayedd
A Vote for Clive is a Vote for Justice
thanks dude
Still in my first year, So the plan is to ride it out until the end of the year and hopefully find another workplace
as for the date, yep online, already deleted and blocked it,
Ok, I know you don’t want to hear it but you’re better off without her.I was left for another man, after 22 years, then she came back to me and did it all again. That was a year ago on Fathers Day (the second time) and I thought I’d move on but it’s just not going to happen. I’ve made several attempts on my life but fortunately I suppose I have no idea what I’m doing and keep messing it up. Maybe the self sabotage is deliberate. I have a 4 year old daughter I don’t want to leave behind but when I get down I don’t care. Drugs haven’t helped. Psychs haven’t helped. Friends are over it, I don’t care for their opinion anyway as they’re shared friends, all married with young families because that’s who you hang out with when you’re married with a young family. As I’ve said previously, business is through the roof. Sadly, I work alone with my thoughts. I keep pushing through, trying to show her that I’m successful and I’m worth it. That’s my only motivation. It’s in vain. I keep holding out hope that simply doesn’t exist but when that hope runs out…
You need to keep trying with the psychs. Trust me if you get a good one,theyre worth their weight in gold. Please keep trying to get a good one. The right one will help you.
Have you tried support groups, men’s groups? They can be very supportive.
You sound like such a nice person, ive always thought that. Your worth does not hinge on whether this woman wants you or not. You have worth as you are.
Your daughter needs you. Please keep hanging in there.
Last year I visited emergency department 4 times with severe anxiety and depression. I kept trying to find a psychologist, either they were full or just crap. But eventually I found a beautiful one who just gets me and I’m slowly starting to make progress.
You need to find people who will help you see the gold in you. They are out there I promise. Like attracts like.
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Another option, and I know it's bloody hard to even contemplate when you're floored, is volunteering with a charity/community service. Great social connection with amazing people and a wonderful sense of purpose.
Marklar_33
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It’s ******* hard. Everything I worked towards, gone. I don’t have a plan B. I built a household and a family. I don’t want my daughter growing up between houses like I did
Marklar_33
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Already do but I’ll probably quit the role
Has the organisation you volunteer with got any support services you can access?
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Totally agree, but in this current climate its a bit hard. I've tried several times to do volunteer work at animal shelters, cause I know I'd benefit massively from it, but they just dont accept volunteers while we're in LD. Even when not in LD its very hard to get in.
Yeah, thas a definite issue. There are only limited volunteer services allowed at the moment, so it's definitely harder to find one that fits your individual style.
