Health Depression

[MP_]

Got a fine review rejected where the officer lied and a bit upset about it. These sorts of things can send me into a bit of spin. Feel like driving my car through my local police station, but I know I can't do that of course.

It’s times like this I put my trust in karma to sort things out.

 

[lllscroatlll]

 

[Electronic_Renaissance]

Got a fine review rejected where the officer lied and a bit upset about it. These sorts of things can send me into a bit of spin. Feel like driving my car through my local police station, but I know I can't do that of course.

I've had the same thing. There is no way I could have been parked in the places and times mentioned.

Review got rejected. I least I have the pleasure in knowing I am not a parking inspector. Imagine having to have to say that in social events when asked "What do you do?". I bet they just lie.

 

[snozulu]

Am currently in the ED department. Feeling elevated and having bad thoughts. Don't forget to look after yourselves and seek help if you need. I know so many blokes out there are raised and stubborn when it comes to healthcare and too many times it's too late. I was one of them but I am a survivor and here for a reason. To help others. I just forget myself sometimes.

 

[MP_]

Am currently in the ED department. Feeling elevated and having bad thoughts. Don't forget to look after yourselves and seek help if you need. I know so many blokes out there are raised and stubborn when it comes to healthcare and too many times it's too late. I was one of them but I am a survivor and here for a reason. To help others. I just forget myself sometimes.

Hope you’re doing ok. I feel like I’m slipping again, not enjoying my job, no motivation and so much self hatred and constant ruminating

 

[snozulu]

Hope you’re doing ok. I feel like I’m slipping again, not enjoying my job, no motivation and so much self hatred and constant ruminating

I am feeling better now thanks I had an anxiety attack and have felt settled since. Self compassion is something I try to work hard on. I use a bit of mindfulness. Some useful ones on insight timer app and YouTube. The honest guys is a useful channel. It took me so many years to find what I want in a career with job satisfaction. For me I started with my strengths and values. I did a free survey years ago from the online via survey. It gave me a basic run down of my strengths. It's a horrible cycle to be stuck in dude. I hope you can break it and get back on your recovery journey.

 

[MP_]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

 

[Electronic_Renaissance]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

I have or had the same thing. My stomach was just churning every morning and I couldn't think of a reason why. I suppose that is the disease, there is no logical reason for feeling like that.

Are you on any meds for it? I am and it really works. I notice it because if I forget to take my dose at night the next morning I sometimes get so bad I feel like I am going to throw up. Again, I can't think of a reason. I'd understand with stuff like an exam or job interview. But I just can't think of why. Again that's probably why it is a disease.

 

[Madas]

I went through this about 2 years ago
Difficult time in business
Some family issues
A lot of self doubt
Bit of a mid life crisis
All the general bullshit of the world making me despise humanity.

Kinda all hit me at once

It was horrible
Massive anxiety, couldn’t get out of bed , felt like it would be better for everyone if I wasn’t here .

So I tried these few things to manage my head ( cliched as hell but they worked for me )

Reminded myself that people’s expectations probably weren’t as high as I thought and that as long as I tried my best then they would understand ( and they generally did )

Made sure that I allowed some “me” time during the week even if that meant it clashed with work

Planned 2-3 holidays a year so that I regularly had something to look forward to and a reason to go to work everyday

Exercised regularly in an environment that was calming and peaceful.

Those few things worked and I gradually came out of it , hope it is of some benefit to any of you guys who are currently struggling with this , it gets better most of the time

 

[Engimal v3]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

On any medication? Escitalopram alleviated a lot of this for me.

 

[MP_]

On any medication? Escitalopram alleviated a lot of this for me.

I I’m on pristiq, my Apple Watch even warned me about my resting heart rate has been up 20bpm the last 7 days

 

[Electronic_Renaissance]

On any medication? Escitalopram alleviated a lot of this for me.

I I’m on pristiq, my Apple Watch even warned me about my resting heart rate has been up 20bpm the last 7 days

I've been on both of those. Did nothing for me. I am highly treatment resistant. Was on clonazepam for well over 10 years. Plus any other med you can think of.

Now I've been on the "dreaded" Alprazolam or "Xanax" for about 1.5 years. It's a controlled drug like morphine, fentanyl, methadone etc. I think people were shooting up with it so the drug got upgraded.

Only specialists can prescribe it, I'm pretty sure GP's can't. I had to sign forms saying I would only use it as prescribed and not give it to anyone else (that would be a crime, the same as dealing illicit drugs). They have to submit the form to the health department and there are all these rules regarding repeats. I never asked for it, my Dr just saw how bad I was and trusts me enough not to abuse it. I wouldn't do that.

It really works for me, though not completely. I don't get a buzz or crave it or anything. It's affect is subtle to me, even though I am on a pretty high dose. Been on it all this time and don't think I have built up any tolerance.

I never asked for it, I've never asked for any specific med. But if you go into a Dr and say you need Alprazolam, they will just think "junkie". I suppose I will stay on it until it stops working. I am already on the max recommended dose. At the Dr's descretion they can up it. At least it gets me functioning.

 

[mouncey2franklin]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

This may be a silly question but have you been drinking alcohol more than usual lately?

 

[MP_]

This may be a silly question but have you been drinking alcohol more than usual lately?

I don’t drink alcohol

 

[raskolnikov]

The last six months has taken a toll on my mental health. After losing my mum and 16yr old dog, being estranged from my sister (I'm glad I am as she is no longer worth the effort but it still makes me sad) my recent experience with my nephew (long story that a lot of people on here already know) my mental health has taken a dive. Constantly feeling anxious, depressed, feeling that everyone hates me. I don't like to socialise because I just don't think I'd be much fun to be around at the moment. Work and CrossFit are the only social outlets I have and even with CrossFit things aren't good as there was an incident that has soured my enjoyment of going there and I am thinking of just working out at home. I'm meant to be going down to Brisbane to the Torian Pro (a major CrossFit competition) next weekend with a group from my gym but my th social anxiety is making me think of pulling the plug on that, even though the ticket cost me $275. My PhD thesis has also been put on the backburner because I am lacking motivation at the moment.

 

[MP_]

The last six months has taken a toll on my mental health. After losing my mum and 16yr old dog, being estranged from my sister (I'm glad I am as she is no longer worth the effort but it still makes me sad) my recent experience with my nephew (long story that a lot of people on here already know) my mental health has taken a dive. Constantly feeling anxious, depressed, feeling that everyone hates me. I don't like to socialise because I just don't think I'd be much fun to be around at the moment. Work and CrossFit are the only social outlets I have and even with CrossFit things aren't good as there was an incident that has soured my enjoyment of going there and I am thinking of just working out at home. I'm meant to be going down to Brisbane to the Torian Pro (a major CrossFit competition) next weekend with a group from my gym but my th social anxiety is making me think of pulling the plug on that, even though the ticket cost me $275. My PhD thesis has also been put on the backburner because I am lacking motivation at the moment.

Rask the one thing I’ve learnt from my years of battling depression and anxiety is that what my head is saying to myself is generally not true. The one quote I always fall back to when dealing with ruminating is ‘ you are not your mind’ . Your mind is a trickster and is out to get you. You need to catch yourself when these thoughts come in and go hey this isn’t true. I honestly don’t believe people hate you, that’s just a story you are telling yourself. I think you should go to the CrossFit event as it was something you clearly wanted to do and enjoy and not going will potentially make you ruminate more. All the best mate, you will get through all this as hard as it seems right now.

 

[jerry springer]

Long time reader. first time writer

having a massive battle with the black dog at the moment. lost quite a few friends, work colleague's, former students over the past two years to suicide which has really started to impact me.

normally I'm a pretty positive, chatty guy, but over the past month or so just want to curl up and stay in bed. hate talking to people but unfortunately in a job that I have to train and assess people so need to be able to communicate at a good level.

there is normally 3 people in my work role but this year have lost the other two to one having a stroke and the other tearing his rotator cuff, neither have been replaced. i told my boss I was doing it tough back in march but then lost him to him having a TIA/stroke and he didn't get replaced, so now I'm the Boss and trying to do the job of 3 people and I'm basically putting on a façade trying to keep things ticking over till replacement's can come in and assist, and hopefully i can tap out soon.

never been so depressed in my life, only thing keeping going was small things like my fantasy football draft a few weeks ago, have nothing much to look forward till maybe the NFL season

sorry about the vent, just have nothing much to look forward to at the moment.

 

[Madas]

Long time reader. first time writer

having a massive battle with the black dog at the moment. lost quite a few friends, work colleague's, former students over the past two years to suicide which has really started to impact me.

normally I'm a pretty positive, chatty guy, but over the past month or so just want to curl up and stay in bed. hate talking to people but unfortunately in a job that I have to train and assess people so need to be able to communicate at a good level.

there is normally 3 people in my work role but this year have lost the other two to one having a stroke and the other tearing his rotator cuff, neither have been replaced. i told my boss I was doing it tough back in march but then lost him to him having a TIA/stroke and he didn't get replaced, so now I'm the Boss and trying to do the job of 3 people and I'm basically putting on a façade trying to keep things ticking over till replacement's can come in and assist, and hopefully i can tap out soon.

never been so depressed in my life, only thing keeping going was small things like my fantasy football draft a few weeks ago, have nothing much to look forward till maybe the NFL season

sorry about the vent, just have nothing much to look forward to at the moment.

All good mate , let it out
We all hit low spots

The ripple effects from someone else taking their own life are far reaching and I would say in some ways unfair on those affected , bloody hurts to lose someone/ anyone like that . I hate it

One positive I can read into from your post is that you at least can identify where the problems are coming from, so I guess incrementally when you feel a bit stronger you can start putting little things in place to challenge the problems ?

On the work stress , I’ve been there too and at 53 I can honestly say. It’s just work .
There are more important things in life

You do the best you can do each day and that’s all that can be expected of you . If you need time out, take it .

Hang in there

 

[jerry springer]

Thank you appreciated

 

[MP_]

Long time reader. first time writer

having a massive battle with the black dog at the moment. lost quite a few friends, work colleague's, former students over the past two years to suicide which has really started to impact me.

normally I'm a pretty positive, chatty guy, but over the past month or so just want to curl up and stay in bed. hate talking to people but unfortunately in a job that I have to train and assess people so need to be able to communicate at a good level.

there is normally 3 people in my work role but this year have lost the other two to one having a stroke and the other tearing his rotator cuff, neither have been replaced. i told my boss I was doing it tough back in march but then lost him to him having a TIA/stroke and he didn't get replaced, so now I'm the Boss and trying to do the job of 3 people and I'm basically putting on a façade trying to keep things ticking over till replacement's can come in and assist, and hopefully i can tap out soon.

never been so depressed in my life, only thing keeping going was small things like my fantasy football draft a few weeks ago, have nothing much to look forward till maybe the NFL season

sorry about the vent, just have nothing much to look forward to at the moment.

No need to apologise for having a rant in here, I find this thread one of the few places I can actually say what I feel and not be judged.

Hopefully you get some work assistance soon, it can certainly be draining mentally doing all of that with little to no support. One thing I always tell my workmates when we are in a similar position to you is that we can only do what we can do. Just do the best you can in the situation you’re in.

You mention there is nothing much to , just keep looking at Nick Daicos highlights . It is hard to find enjoyment when you’re feeling like you are. I have found just getting outside and moving around helps otherwise I’ll just sit on the couch and overthink things. I have also found just getting involved in various Bigfooty threads help as I don’t really have friends in real life but in here I’ve met so many people and enjoy the banter in here that it helps my mental health a lot as I actually feel like I’m socialising.

What NFL team do you support, I follow the Steelers but have only done so for a few years.

Keep plugging away mate and keep posting in here if it helps we are all here for you and understand the struggles that are happening.

 

[jerry springer]

No need to apologise for having a rant in here, I find this thread one of the few places I can actually say what I feel and not be judged.

Hopefully you get some work assistance soon, it can certainly be draining mentally doing all of that with little to no support. One thing I always tell my workmates when we are in a similar position to you is that we can only do what we can do. Just do the best you can in the situation you’re in.

You mention there is nothing much to , just keep looking at Nick Daicos highlights . It is hard to find enjoyment when you’re feeling like you are. I have found just getting outside and moving around helps otherwise I’ll just sit on the couch and overthink things. I have also found just getting involved in various Bigfooty threads help as I don’t really have friends in real life but in here I’ve met so many people and enjoy the banter in here that it helps my mental health a lot as I actually feel like I’m socialising.

What NFL team do you support, I follow the Steelers but have only done so for a few years.

Keep plugging away mate and keep posting in here if it helps we are all here for you and understand the struggles that are happening.

Thanks, appreciate the above two detailed responses feel better after making the above post. Going to seek some treatment next week I think,just need to get through this week.

Mad Cowboys fan ,not expecting too much this season tho

Thanks again for listening

 

[Run n Spread]

I haven't been round these boards much
But still depressed still struggling
But you can't stop trying.
While I've been ripped off my latest invention my brain is working great and I'll take on all comers. Don't give up

 

[Engimal v3]

I haven't been round these boards much
But still depressed still struggling
But you can't stop trying.
While I've been ripped off my latest invention my brain is working great and I'll take on all comers. Don't give up

Absolutely mate, the show must go on! Feel free to PM if you are struggling, always happy to lend an ear

 

[Run n Spread]

Absolutely mate, the show must go on! Feel free to PM if you are struggling, always happy to lend an ear

Thanks mate. I'm honestly trying.
Things are going well. I enjoyed the footy on the weekend (no offence intended and it's a more enjoyment thing)
But things aren't going well. And I hate myself but what do you do? Ill keep going

 

[Run n Spread]

Sick and tired of this shit.
I'm tired. This is not a joke. I'm tired of getting up on the cold