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Was on track with someone from BF. 3.5 year LTR. Just fell out of love was mutual
Funny you say that lol

I’ve met someone through BF. We’ll see where that goes. Amazing fella ❤️
 

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Was reminded today by a workmate how little people understand about mental health and depression. We were talking about Troy Selwood and suicide and he couldn’t grasp the concept of why someone like him could potentially end his life. He’s said we live in a great country what have you got to be upset about.

ATM on the outside I’ve been putting on a massive mask but internally I’m struggling bad with very dark thoughts. I’d give anything to just be able to wake up and feel great all the time. **** me I’ve got a wife, three great kids , dream job, how could I possibly think about ending my life yet every ****ing day these thoughts are there. Some people just don’t get it, I don’t even get it. I just put on this ****ing mask and push it back in for another 14 hours until I go to sleep then the cycle starts again.

This is my life it seems, each day blends into the next. Can’t beat this darkness but not letting it defeat me either. Just wish people had more compassion and understanding.
 
I got suckered back in because my family chats on FB Messenger. I'm weighing up the pros and cons of keeping it just for that purpose or ridding myself of it entirely.
Get rid of all of it
Tip from a sage old dog
It’s completely unnecessary

Instead of posting look at me stuff go do something productive for yourself and society instead
And then just learn to enjoy that feeling

The world would surely be an infinitely better place if everyone did this I’m sure of it
It’s such a time wasting , vain pursuit
 

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Was reminded today by a workmate how little people understand about mental health and depression. We were talking about Troy Selwood and suicide and he couldn’t grasp the concept of why someone like him could potentially end his life. He’s said we live in a great country what have you got to be upset about.
Sorry, but what a ****ing idiot. :rolleyesv1: 🤦‍♀️

I sincerely hope you told him that.
 
Sorry, but what a ****ing idiot. :rolleyesv1: 🤦‍♀️

I sincerely hope you told him that.
Personally I find it baffling that people don't feel that way regularly - I'm always confused when people get super nervous about it and I'm sitting there thinking "I feel like this pretty darn often, I've gotten pretty good at sitting in the same room as the thought, it's not really that big a deal." Having said that there's been times when I've actually felt it was a risk and had to be particularly careful. It'd be amazing to live your life and not be able to comprehend anyone having those thoughts. Lucky bugger.
 
Personally I find it baffling that people don't feel that way regularly - I'm always confused when people get super nervous about it and I'm sitting there thinking "I feel like this pretty darn often, I've gotten pretty good at sitting in the same room as the thought, it's not really that big a deal." Having said that there's been times when I've actually felt it was a risk and had to be particularly careful. It'd be amazing to live your life and not be able to comprehend anyone having those thoughts. Lucky bugger.
The loneliness gets me. I live alone and have literally lost all my friends- every single one of them have either ghosted me or we've just fallen out of touch naturally.

Keep going over and over in my head what I did.. but **** em. I'm a good person and was a good friend. Very good friend actually.
 
The loneliness gets me. I live alone and have literally lost all my friends- every single one of them have either ghosted me or we've just fallen out of touch naturally.

Keep going over and over in my head what I did.. but **** em. I'm a good person and was a good friend. Very good friend actually.
Yep, loneliness is actually a big ballcrusher than suicidal thoughts in the end. Never try to work out exactly why others actions are what they are. It's hard enough working out why you do the things you do yourself. Trying to keep hobbies/interests alive is the best thing, keeps your mind active and interesting and friends can tumble in when they can, in the meantime you can keep self occupied (and potentially interesting to anyone who wanders into your world).
 
Yep, loneliness is actually a big ballcrusher than suicidal thoughts in the end. Never try to work out exactly why others actions are what they are. It's hard enough working out why you do the things you do yourself. Trying to keep hobbies/interests alive is the best thing, keeps your mind active and interesting and friends can tumble in when they can, in the meantime you can keep self occupied (and potentially interesting to anyone who wanders into your world).
It truly is an awful feeling.

March-Nov/December last year when i came home from work on the Friday, I didnt leave my apartment until Monday morning to go back to work.


I've decided my NY resolution not only to lose 5kgs- but to spend more money. And therefore get out of the house.
 

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Was reminded today by a workmate how little people understand about mental health and depression. We were talking about Troy Selwood and suicide and he couldn’t grasp the concept of why someone like him could potentially end his life. He’s said we live in a great country what have you got to be upset about.

ATM on the outside I’ve been putting on a massive mask but internally I’m struggling bad with very dark thoughts. I’d give anything to just be able to wake up and feel great all the time. **** me I’ve got a wife, three great kids , dream job, how could I possibly think about ending my life yet every ****ing day these thoughts are there. Some people just don’t get it, I don’t even get it. I just put on this ****ing mask and push it back in for another 14 hours until I go to sleep then the cycle starts again.

This is my life it seems, each day blends into the next. Can’t beat this darkness but not letting it defeat me either. Just wish people had more compassion and understanding.
I do not understand selwood or the life he lived but completely understand how he hit the skids (and media did report he took his life). Life is no longer easy and to spite what's said and to spite best efforts support is weak. There is no awareness or will to solve the problems
 
Same 30s best years of my life. Better than 20s
40s going backwards
Nah I'd say 20s better.

20- went OS twice, found a steady career, start of LTR, 2 premierships
30- went OS once, one premiership, broke up LTR, job was happy enough
40s- cancelled 40th due to COVID, severe depression, left job, COVID, saw one premiership but wasn't there and didnt enjoy it whatsoever, lost all friends, they've all disappeared.
 

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