Health Depression

[HomerThompson]

Anyone else feel like the world is out to get them, or everything and everyone seems to be out to get them?

Yeah. Every time I start making progress in one area something comes up to set me back in another. As I try to deal with that, the first thing regresses.
And the typical work of daily life just keeps piling up.

 

[Run n Spread]

Anyone else feel like the world is out to get them, or everything and everyone seems to be out to get them?

Yes. I've had a massive failure today like you couldn't believe. No point me trying anything anymore. It leads to crushing failure and people love to take advantage. Everything we're told about doing our best and work hard is bullshit pure and simple.
I'm now going to get the drunkest I've ever been in my life.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Anyone else feel like the world is out to get them, or everything and everyone seems to be out to get them?

Sometimes but I raise my chin to the sun and think to myself…. **** everyone xx

 

[Soldier Of Misfortune]

Sometimes but I raise my chin to the sun and think to myself…. **** everyone xx

Worst part is its pretty much impossible to recognise at the time just how much depression reprograms not just your present but your future and your past as well wirh everything you have done, loved and enjoyed seeming tarnished even though normally it might be stuff you're really proud of. It truly is a motherfr.

 

[ash_1050]

Anyone else feel like the world is out to get them, or everything and everyone seems to be out to get them?

By default the world doesn't care about you. At all. The feeling that it's inherently biased against you is one that comes from within rather than the reality.

 

[Run n Spread]

I was thought there is nothing wrong with being by yourself. And there isn't.
Nothing wrong with getting hammered travelling and taking up hobbies by yourself.
But me sitting in a pub having a drink waiting for trivia to start by myself is ****ing pathetic. Why I put myself through this crap is beyond me. Going home.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I was thought there is nothing wrong with being by yourself. And there isn't.
Nothing wrong with getting hammered travelling and taking up hobbies by yourself.
But me sitting in a pub having a drink waiting for trivia to start by myself is ****ing pathetic. Why I put myself through this crap is beyond me. Going home.

Awwww stop! Pity you didn’t live closer. I’d go to trivia with you but I’m dumb as dog shit so unless the questions were about food, cakes or animals…. I’d be shit but surely there are smaller groups you could join.

 

[Madas]

Anyone else feel like the world is out to get them, or everything and everyone seems to be out to get them?

It’s not real mate
The world really doesn’t care , it’s neither cruel nor fair nor unfair , it just is .

It rolls on regardless as it has done from time immortal and will do forever

We are the masters of our destiny, no one else

 

[DemurePrincess]

It’s not real mate
The world really doesn’t care , it’s neither cruel nor fair , it just is .

It rolls on regardless as it has done from time immortal and will do forever

We are the masters of our destiny, no one else

Beautifully said.

 

[Shell]

I was thought there is nothing wrong with being by yourself. And there isn't.
Nothing wrong with getting hammered travelling and taking up hobbies by yourself.
But me sitting in a pub having a drink waiting for trivia to start by myself is ****ing pathetic. Why I put myself through this crap is beyond me. Going home.

Join a meet up trivia group on Meetup.com

 

[Shell]

Awwww stop! Pity you didn’t live closer. I’d go to trivia with you but I’m dumb as dog shit so unless the questions were about food, cakes or animals…. I’d be shit but surely there are smaller groups you could join.

I'm good at pop culture, movies, 80s all that crap. Not bad at Geography. Shit at history.


If there were year 8 maths questions I'd be a ****ing gun mate

 

[Run n Spread]

Anyone here ever been diagnosed with anything or psychologically assessed? And I mean really not some 2 bit half wit giving their 2 bobs worth.
I have twice... never again but may need to go again.
I seem to just not think like regular people (whoever they are).
But it's getting to the point I'm seriously damaging my life where I want to remove myself from society

 

[MP_]

Anyone here ever been diagnosed with anything or psychologically assessed? And I mean really not some 2 bit half wit giving their 2 bobs worth.
I have twice... never again but may need to go again.
I seem to just not think like regular people (whoever they are).
But it's getting to the point I'm seriously damaging my life where I want to remove myself from society

My wife and daughter were both diagnosed with adhd in the last 12 months. The medication and understanding of how their brains work has made a huge difference to their lives.

 

[DemurePrincess]

My wife and daughter were both diagnosed with adhd in the last 12 months. The medication and understanding of how their brains work has made a huge difference to their lives.

That’s fab news bc my daughter is going through that process now. I should too but I think - **** it. Why change what I know to something I don’t

 

[MP_]

That’s fab news bc my daughter is going through that process now. I should too but I think - **** it. Why change what I know to something I don’t

I think for my wife it just gave her clarity on why she always felt a bit different to everyone. She doesn’t always take the meds just on the days where she needs her head to not be all over the place so she can concentrate on the jobs she “needs “ to get done

 

[DemurePrincess]

I think for my wife it just gave her clarity on why she always felt a bit different to everyone. She doesn’t always take the meds just on the days where she needs her head to not be all over the place so she can concentrate on the jobs she “needs “ to get done

I can’t. I am one scattered mother ****er. I have big highs and big lows. Nothing much going on in between. I make sure there are more good days then bad bc it’s a lot harder to climb out of that pissy bloody hole.

But work wise. I’m all over the shop and it annoys the **** out of me. I end up in tears most days bc I get so angry at myself for being so shit at life but in the same breath…. I love life so have my meltdowns and move on very quickly and feel really dumb afterwards. Every bloody time

 

[Run n Spread]

I can’t. I am one scattered mother ****er. I have big highs and big lows. Nothing much going on in between. I make sure there are more good days then bad bc it’s a lot harder to climb out of that pissy bloody hole.

But work wise. I’m all over the shop and it annoys the **** out of me. I end up in tears most days bc I get so angry at myself for being so shit at life but in the same breath…. I love life so have my meltdowns and move on very quickly and feel really dumb afterwards. Every bloody time

I've just conceeded work simply is not for me. To.spite my failures I'll just keep on keeping on
I'll never fit.
Anything else I'll work out
Life doesn't really interest me much. In the sense I care deeply about things Anything or anyone else can jam it

 

[Shell]

I'm feeling a bit nervous- this is usually around this time of year, or in a month or so the seasonal kicks in.

I ****ing hate it. Like being up half the year, down the other half.

 

[Run n Spread]

I'm feeling a bit nervous- this is usually around this time of year, or in a month or so the seasonal kicks in.

I ****ing hate it. Like being up half the year, down the other half.

Same thing is happening to me.
People think I'm nuts when I say my biggest struggle is getting up at 630 in the dark. And then I'm rendered useless till 1130.
Do.anything. drink don't drink go out don't go out read watch TV date don't date makes **** all difference.
Just need to find a way that suits you.
Problem is it isn't always easy to change

 

[raskolnikov]

Anyone else feel like the world is out to get them, or everything and everyone seems to be out to get them?

Just about every day.

 

[MP_]

Bit of an update on my depression, about 6 weeks ago my marriage was almost over, I knew things weren’t that good and that we were both ignoring issues and just co living by our life. My mental health was not great and was progressively getting worse to the point I was having constant dark thoughts. For about 6 years I’ve been living with some horrible skeletons that very few knew about and I was just pushing it all inside (not a healthy thing to do) . So 6 weeks ago my daughter sent me a random message saying that she loves me and that she would choose me as her dad every single time. This broke me because if she knew the stuff about me then she wouldn’t think that way. Anyway I thanked her and told her it’s nice to feel loved (because I honestly hadn’t felt loved in a long time). That night my wife and I had a huge talk about everything and I mean absolutely everything. Things were revealed that I had no idea about, things I though were secrets were known by everyone close too me. Some had known only recently others for years. We talked genuinely for hours and I probably slept the best I ever have in ten years and it’s been great ever since. The amazing thing for me was that I was so concerned about judgement from everyone that just became a hermit when in fact no one’s be judged me at all, not my wife, parents , in laws or kids. They forgave me, they didn’t condone me but forgave me and Inturn I have now forgiven myself which has led me to finally be at peace and to move forward in my life with my marriage and my relationships with everyone around me.

TLDR- forgive yourself, ****ing talk.. as hard as it is you just need to do it, it’s uncomfortable it’s hard but it’s so important to do. Be open with your partner, I almost threw 24 years of marriage away because I wouldn’t talk and my wife was ready to walk.

I feel really good at the moment best I’ve felt in soo long.

Sorry for the long post but I don’t have a lot of real life people to tell and I really hope my post gives others hope.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Bit of an update on my depression, about 6 weeks ago my marriage was almost over, I knew things weren’t that good and that we were both ignoring issues and just co living by our life. My mental health was not great and was progressively getting worse to the point I was having constant dark thoughts. For about 6 years I’ve been living with some horrible skeletons that very few knew about and I was just pushing it all inside (not a healthy thing to do) . So 6 weeks ago my daughter sent me a random message saying that she loves me and that she would choose me as her dad every single time. This broke me because if she knew the stuff about me then she wouldn’t think that way. Anyway I thanked her and told her it’s nice to feel loved (because I honestly hadn’t felt loved in a long time). That night my wife and I had a huge talk about everything and I mean absolutely everything. Things were revealed that I had no idea about, things I though were secrets were known by everyone close too me. Some had known only recently others for years. We talked genuinely for hours and I probably slept the best I ever have in ten years and it’s been great ever since. The amazing thing for me was that I was so concerned about judgement from everyone that just became a hermit when in fact no one’s be judged me at all, not my wife, parents , in laws or kids. They forgave me, they didn’t condone me but forgave me and Inturn I have now forgiven myself which has led me to finally be at peace and to move forward in my life with my marriage and my relationships with everyone around me.

TLDR- forgive yourself, ****ing talk.. as hard as it is you just need to do it, it’s uncomfortable it’s hard but it’s so important to do. Be open with your partner, I almost threw 24 years of marriage away because I wouldn’t talk and my wife was ready to walk.

I feel really good at the moment best I’ve felt in soo long.

Sorry for the long post but I don’t have a lot of real life people to tell and I really hope my post gives others hope.

This

I’m so bloody happy for you. Communication is ALWAYS the key. Always! Im so so happy for you mate. 24 years is a long time to throw away and just think. You have the next whatever to make up for the past and make it so much better.

Good on you!

 

[DemurePrincess]

And kids aren’t dumb you know. Thank god your daughter struck that chord for you to open up!

This is the nicest thing I’ve read for a while. I’m truly happy for you

 

[MP_]

And kids aren’t dumb you know. Thank god your daughter struck that chord for you to open up!

This is the nicest thing I’ve read for a while. I’m truly happy for you

My eldest daughter is very intuitive and was probably reading my mood over the days leading to that message. She’s studying psychology at uni , she’ll do great things in the mental health field I’m sure of it.

 

[DemurePrincess]

My eldest daughter is very intuitive and was probably reading my mood over the days leading to that message. She’s studying psychology at uni , she’ll do great things in the mental health field I’m sure of it.

My daughter is 9 and I can’t hide a bloody thing from her. She knows when I’m not feeling the best and she says the most mature things and I snap out of it instantly.

Sounds like we are both very lucky to have these young ladies in our lives.

But I’m smiling a big smile for you. Thanks for sharing