I have debated for a while about posting something like this but I feel it's time so here goes.
I had my first week back at work after having about 2 months off after coming within an inch of ending my own life. I have had issues with depression, addiction and anxiety, around this time I truly felt as though there was no point in living and did not see any other alternative.
Looking back now I understand how mental illness clouds the mind to such an extent that basic logic and reason can no longer function. An analogy that I find helpful is that it is like a neurological cancer, if left untreated it can and for a disgraceful amount of people does claim lives. Treatment can help and whilst it may not totally destroy the beast, it can absolutely tame it to an extent that you can live a long, happy life.
There is not a single one of us here who if we were diagnosed by a professional that we had cancer would refuse chemotherapy, medication, say no to a hospital and go home and think that we could get rid of the cancer by ourselves with some willpower...so why is mental illness any different?
I haven't felt this frankly great for a long time and I learnt a few lessons from this period and if I can help just one person here in the smallest way then awesome!
The biggest lesson I learnt is that it's ok to be vulnerable, it's ok to need help and that talking honestly about your feelings and emotions is paramount. For a long time you could not pay me enough money to even admit I needed help, let alone to talk about it, during that time I resolutely believed that talking about it would achieve nothing, I couldn't have been more wrong!
So I am not asking, I am not telling, I am begging you to admit you need help, that you cannot slay the beast by yourself and that talking honestly about it does help.
I know we argue a lot on here (I have been guilty of this) but if ANY of you felt like talking about this, and sometimes a relative stranger can be easier at first than with a loved one, please feel free to contact me either publically or privately (am more than willing to give you my mobile number as well).
I am here for you.
Spread the love and together let's help each other slay and tame our beasts and enjoy our beautiful lives!
Lots of love and respect,
Fallout
I had my first week back at work after having about 2 months off after coming within an inch of ending my own life. I have had issues with depression, addiction and anxiety, around this time I truly felt as though there was no point in living and did not see any other alternative.
Looking back now I understand how mental illness clouds the mind to such an extent that basic logic and reason can no longer function. An analogy that I find helpful is that it is like a neurological cancer, if left untreated it can and for a disgraceful amount of people does claim lives. Treatment can help and whilst it may not totally destroy the beast, it can absolutely tame it to an extent that you can live a long, happy life.
There is not a single one of us here who if we were diagnosed by a professional that we had cancer would refuse chemotherapy, medication, say no to a hospital and go home and think that we could get rid of the cancer by ourselves with some willpower...so why is mental illness any different?
I haven't felt this frankly great for a long time and I learnt a few lessons from this period and if I can help just one person here in the smallest way then awesome!
The biggest lesson I learnt is that it's ok to be vulnerable, it's ok to need help and that talking honestly about your feelings and emotions is paramount. For a long time you could not pay me enough money to even admit I needed help, let alone to talk about it, during that time I resolutely believed that talking about it would achieve nothing, I couldn't have been more wrong!
So I am not asking, I am not telling, I am begging you to admit you need help, that you cannot slay the beast by yourself and that talking honestly about it does help.
I know we argue a lot on here (I have been guilty of this) but if ANY of you felt like talking about this, and sometimes a relative stranger can be easier at first than with a loved one, please feel free to contact me either publically or privately (am more than willing to give you my mobile number as well).
I am here for you.
Spread the love and together let's help each other slay and tame our beasts and enjoy our beautiful lives!
Lots of love and respect,
Fallout