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Originally posted by Clark Kent
I just called a woman I hadn't spoken to in 20 years yesterday. Good friends of my family, I grew up with this girl, and fell in love with her in my teens. As she was a year older than me, I always felt out of my depth as a teenager and young adult.
I left home to pursue a career interstate, and lost contact with her, without ever telling her how I felt, or feeling her lips on mine. We were soul-mates, but that is all. My parents and hers have now known one another for 44 years, and still see each other regularly. Mum kept me up to date with my Princess's life, through health problems, marriage, and six kids. Each time, it was a knife in the heart, for me, because I still loved her.
I married in my mid twenties, some 15 years ago, and have a beautiful son from that marriage, but …..
Not a week has gone by without me thinking of my Princess, and now I have called her, after the pain of not knowing if we’d ever speak to one another became too much. She was ecstatic that I had called her, and we will meet shortly. I have so much to ask her, and say to her. Suffice to say, if I have the strength, I am going to tell her I loved her then, and still do. We cannot be together as I had wished, but I am not going to die with this on my mind.
I made the mistake of not telling her, and it cost me 22 years of pain. It is too late, I know, but at least she will know that I love her, still.
And, yes, I am ready to cop the flack from those who believe my duty is to my wife and family. This may be so, and to a certain extent I agree. However, I am at my wit’s end, and cannot cope with the alternative.
My first date was at 14, and I totally messed the day up. And for the last 15 and a bit years I have regretted that day. The pain is now just a dull ache because so much time has gone past and that I am married now, and my wife loves me very much. So I can kinda know what you feel.






