jmac70
On the porch
There is no solution.Everything you wrote feels right at an emotional truth. And in some ways it resonates a little with my reaction to the Tom Silvagni thing too. It's easy to become absorbed by discourse that focusses on the perpetrator and lose sight of the victims and the horrible reality of what was done.
I would freely admit to being still in a form of shock. We are lucky here that atrocities of this magnitude are so rare in our experience it is almost impossible to assimilate the reality. But we have to understand for those directly involved, or who feel like they are in the line of fire because of it, its not remote. Its all too easy to assimilate the reality and the fear that bites into the soul like a cancer.
I don't know what the solution is. But I can only hope it lies somewhere in our power, and comes from rejecting the forces that led to this; the hate and dehumanisation that makes a group become a target. And hope that if I faced the test, I would take the same route as Ahmed al Ahmed. I guess his act is what I cling to to give me hope.
One of the hardest things I have found is talking about events like this with my son. I can't hide from him the fact the world at its core can be a ****ed up place and I dont have the answers and I wish I had easy answers or comforting words. He goes to school in Brighton and several of his mates are Jewish and he feels the attack on them as an attack on brothers.
I guess maybe there too lies some hope. Maybe him and his generation will do better than us.
Sorry for the rambling words. It has been a hard day at home, and it scrambles the brain. And I continue the challenge of life, to mix the strength to oppose and stand against the worst of humanity, with the love, patience, and compassion to give the best, and the hope that we can make inroads to move from one to the other. But if the time comes...meet it with fortitude too.
Love to you all and have a great Christmas and holiday season. Except Carlton **** those assholes.








