Kabir Ali has pleaded with the England selectors not to banish him to the international wilderness after his limited-overs nightmare.
The Worcestershire paceman was included in the England side for the final two games of the disastrous series with Sri Lanka and conceded 149 runs in 16 overs.
Kabir, 25, admits his confidence was at an all-time low after a battering at the hands of Sanath Jayasuriya.
But he is adamant he can still do a job for his country and admitted he would be "disappointed" if not given another chance by coach Duncan Fletcher.
Kabir said: "I was disappointed with how it went with England, I would have liked to have done more. I played two games when we were 3-0 down and Jayasuriya was seeing it like a football.
"After I finished with England I came back to Worcestershire and remember travelling on the coach to Northampton and thinking 'I have got no confidence, I have nothing at all'.
"It showed me just what a step up it is to that level. When players like Jayasuriya get going, it is quite hard to stop them. It's always nerve-wracking to play for England at any level but those were days when nothing went right.
"I have never known my confidence to be like that. Normally I am the kind of guy who doesn't let anything bother them. I want the ball and will go have a bowl and try to get wickets.
"This was the first time I felt empty of confidence - but I soon realised it was just one of those games. A few players went for runs and I was just one of them. I've gradually got my confidence back."
Kabir added: "I still feel I can do a job for England. When I played in my one Test match to date I felt I did well and got five wickets.
"Apart from the last two games, I feel I have done well for England, I would be very disappointed if they overlooked me just because of what has happened in the last few games.
"My average is still just over 30 with the ball despite what happened with Sri Lanka - but you never know with selectors. I have got my fingers crossed.
"I did well away against Pakistan last winter with bat and ball so hopefully that will give me a chance."
The Worcestershire paceman was included in the England side for the final two games of the disastrous series with Sri Lanka and conceded 149 runs in 16 overs.
Kabir, 25, admits his confidence was at an all-time low after a battering at the hands of Sanath Jayasuriya.
But he is adamant he can still do a job for his country and admitted he would be "disappointed" if not given another chance by coach Duncan Fletcher.
Kabir said: "I was disappointed with how it went with England, I would have liked to have done more. I played two games when we were 3-0 down and Jayasuriya was seeing it like a football.
"After I finished with England I came back to Worcestershire and remember travelling on the coach to Northampton and thinking 'I have got no confidence, I have nothing at all'.
"It showed me just what a step up it is to that level. When players like Jayasuriya get going, it is quite hard to stop them. It's always nerve-wracking to play for England at any level but those were days when nothing went right.
"I have never known my confidence to be like that. Normally I am the kind of guy who doesn't let anything bother them. I want the ball and will go have a bowl and try to get wickets.
"This was the first time I felt empty of confidence - but I soon realised it was just one of those games. A few players went for runs and I was just one of them. I've gradually got my confidence back."
Kabir added: "I still feel I can do a job for England. When I played in my one Test match to date I felt I did well and got five wickets.
"Apart from the last two games, I feel I have done well for England, I would be very disappointed if they overlooked me just because of what has happened in the last few games.
"My average is still just over 30 with the ball despite what happened with Sri Lanka - but you never know with selectors. I have got my fingers crossed.
"I did well away against Pakistan last winter with bat and ball so hopefully that will give me a chance."
