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Alright, I'm due for a bit of an update, so here goes.
I played in a trial game in the reserves against a lower division side and we belted them off the park, and I gobbled up quite a few possessions playing at half forward, took and spoiled a few marks. One of my coaches said I looked like a 100 game player, so that was quite a shock and having the team all say I did alright was something I wasn't expecting.
In round 1 playing in the reserves (where I've seem to have held down for the time being) I scrounged up a few kicks and handballs and managed to snag a goal, which was nice, but we went down by a couple of goals. I didn't feel like I had effected the game much though.
Round 2 we smacked a team by around 70 odd points, and I didn't do much in that either, and I was pretty disappointed in myself. So not a lot happened there.
Round 3 we got belted by around 100 points, and I played half the game. Disappointment in myself started turning into frustration, and at training that week I was really negative towards myself.
Yesterday we got thumped by around 180 points, but I managed to get the ball a few times, lay a few tackles so personally I've played worse, but it was still a shocking result to be a part of. With about 10 minutes to go I was chasing a loose ball with someone else from the other team, he was in front of me and finally managed to grab the ball. He tried to handball over his head, but instead missed the ball with his fist and collected my face, which took me down for a good 30 seconds or so, and goddamn there was blood everywhere. Came off for a bit with blood rule but was out again for the merciful final siren.
I've been told I'm really critical of myself, but I know I can play a lot better than what I am right now. At best I'm touching the ball around 10 times a game, and I'm now getting frustrated at myself and really second guessing my abilities as a footballer. The boys have all been supportive but I'm still very much quite down at the moment.
I played in a trial game in the reserves against a lower division side and we belted them off the park, and I gobbled up quite a few possessions playing at half forward, took and spoiled a few marks. One of my coaches said I looked like a 100 game player, so that was quite a shock and having the team all say I did alright was something I wasn't expecting.
In round 1 playing in the reserves (where I've seem to have held down for the time being) I scrounged up a few kicks and handballs and managed to snag a goal, which was nice, but we went down by a couple of goals. I didn't feel like I had effected the game much though.
Round 2 we smacked a team by around 70 odd points, and I didn't do much in that either, and I was pretty disappointed in myself. So not a lot happened there.
Round 3 we got belted by around 100 points, and I played half the game. Disappointment in myself started turning into frustration, and at training that week I was really negative towards myself.
Yesterday we got thumped by around 180 points, but I managed to get the ball a few times, lay a few tackles so personally I've played worse, but it was still a shocking result to be a part of. With about 10 minutes to go I was chasing a loose ball with someone else from the other team, he was in front of me and finally managed to grab the ball. He tried to handball over his head, but instead missed the ball with his fist and collected my face, which took me down for a good 30 seconds or so, and goddamn there was blood everywhere. Came off for a bit with blood rule but was out again for the merciful final siren.
I've been told I'm really critical of myself, but I know I can play a lot better than what I am right now. At best I'm touching the ball around 10 times a game, and I'm now getting frustrated at myself and really second guessing my abilities as a footballer. The boys have all been supportive but I'm still very much quite down at the moment.