Health Depression

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Got a fine review rejected where the officer lied and a bit upset about it. These sorts of things can send me into a bit of spin. Feel like driving my car through my local police station, but I know I can't do that of course.

It’s times like this I put my trust in karma to sort things out.

 

[lllscroatlll]

 

[Electronic_Renaissance]

Got a fine review rejected where the officer lied and a bit upset about it. These sorts of things can send me into a bit of spin. Feel like driving my car through my local police station, but I know I can't do that of course.

I've had the same thing. There is no way I could have been parked in the places and times mentioned.

Review got rejected. I least I have the pleasure in knowing I am not a parking inspector. Imagine having to have to say that in social events when asked "What do you do?". I bet they just lie.

 

[snozulu]

Am currently in the ED department. Feeling elevated and having bad thoughts. Don't forget to look after yourselves and seek help if you need. I know so many blokes out there are raised and stubborn when it comes to healthcare and too many times it's too late. I was one of them but I am a survivor and here for a reason. To help others. I just forget myself sometimes.

 

[MP_]

Am currently in the ED department. Feeling elevated and having bad thoughts. Don't forget to look after yourselves and seek help if you need. I know so many blokes out there are raised and stubborn when it comes to healthcare and too many times it's too late. I was one of them but I am a survivor and here for a reason. To help others. I just forget myself sometimes.

Hope you’re doing ok. I feel like I’m slipping again, not enjoying my job, no motivation and so much self hatred and constant ruminating

 

[snozulu]

Hope you’re doing ok. I feel like I’m slipping again, not enjoying my job, no motivation and so much self hatred and constant ruminating

I am feeling better now thanks I had an anxiety attack and have felt settled since. Self compassion is something I try to work hard on. I use a bit of mindfulness. Some useful ones on insight timer app and YouTube. The honest guys is a useful channel. It took me so many years to find what I want in a career with job satisfaction. For me I started with my strengths and values. I did a free survey years ago from the online via survey. It gave me a basic run down of my strengths. It's a horrible cycle to be stuck in dude. I hope you can break it and get back on your recovery journey.

 

[MP_]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

 

[Electronic_Renaissance]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

I have or had the same thing. My stomach was just churning every morning and I couldn't think of a reason why. I suppose that is the disease, there is no logical reason for feeling like that.

Are you on any meds for it? I am and it really works. I notice it because if I forget to take my dose at night the next morning I sometimes get so bad I feel like I am going to throw up. Again, I can't think of a reason. I'd understand with stuff like an exam or job interview. But I just can't think of why. Again that's probably why it is a disease.

 

[Madas]

I went through this about 2 years ago
Difficult time in business
Some family issues
A lot of self doubt
Bit of a mid life crisis
All the general bullshit of the world making me despise humanity.

Kinda all hit me at once

It was horrible
Massive anxiety, couldn’t get out of bed , felt like it would be better for everyone if I wasn’t here .

So I tried these few things to manage my head ( cliched as hell but they worked for me )

Reminded myself that people’s expectations probably weren’t as high as I thought and that as long as I tried my best then they would understand ( and they generally did )

Made sure that I allowed some “me” time during the week even if that meant it clashed with work

Planned 2-3 holidays a year so that I regularly had something to look forward to and a reason to go to work everyday

Exercised regularly in an environment that was calming and peaceful.

Those few things worked and I gradually came out of it , hope it is of some benefit to any of you guys who are currently struggling with this , it gets better most of the time

 

[Engimal v3]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

On any medication? Escitalopram alleviated a lot of this for me.

 

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On any medication? Escitalopram alleviated a lot of this for me.

I I’m on pristiq, my Apple Watch even warned me about my resting heart rate has been up 20bpm the last 7 days

 

[Electronic_Renaissance]

On any medication? Escitalopram alleviated a lot of this for me.

I I’m on pristiq, my Apple Watch even warned me about my resting heart rate has been up 20bpm the last 7 days

I've been on both of those. Did nothing for me. I am highly treatment resistant. Was on clonazepam for well over 10 years. Plus any other med you can think of.

Now I've been on the "dreaded" Alprazolam or "Xanax" for about 1.5 years. It's a controlled drug like morphine, fentanyl, methadone etc. I think people were shooting up with it so the drug got upgraded.

Only specialists can prescribe it, I'm pretty sure GP's can't. I had to sign forms saying I would only use it as prescribed and not give it to anyone else (that would be a crime, the same as dealing illicit drugs). They have to submit the form to the health department and there are all these rules regarding repeats. I never asked for it, my Dr just saw how bad I was and trusts me enough not to abuse it. I wouldn't do that.

It really works for me, though not completely. I don't get a buzz or crave it or anything. It's affect is subtle to me, even though I am on a pretty high dose. Been on it all this time and don't think I have built up any tolerance.

I never asked for it, I've never asked for any specific med. But if you go into a Dr and say you need Alprazolam, they will just think "junkie". I suppose I will stay on it until it stops working. I am already on the max recommended dose. At the Dr's descretion they can up it. At least it gets me functioning.

 

[mouncey2franklin]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately no idea why. First thing in morning just have that nervous pit in my stomach like I’m heading into an exam. I don’t even know what normal Feels like anymore just feel like I’m losing this battle.

This may be a silly question but have you been drinking alcohol more than usual lately?

 

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This may be a silly question but have you been drinking alcohol more than usual lately?

I don’t drink alcohol