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Thanks for sharing all that.Demons feed on fear and negative energy. It's like blood in the water to them. That's why they'll appear as ghosts and try to scare people. If you show them you're not afraid (as I did - hence why it told me that most people are scared), then they'll leave you alone.
I've been in conversations with demonic entities that tried to convince me that I was unworthy of God's love, that God had abandoned the human race to Satan, and that there was no such thing as forgiveness so I might as well 'join the dark side'. The worst attacks on faith you could possibly imagine. But I told them that none of that would stop me being true to myself.
It was after breaking through that experience that I was allowed to see the love of the All, and how it's impossible for God to abandon his creation to anyone, and that being true to yourself is the 'weighing of the heart' by Anubis in the Hall of Judgement. Disowning yourself means to do away with the ego of depending on others to validate your actions as right or wrong, and instead build up self-esteem.
Once you have that...you'll always do the right thing for everyone because it's easy to do the right thing when you don't have a vested interest in the outcome.
For me, about 3 or so years ago, is when it happened to me. I finally realized what "God's Love" actually means. And I was weeping every night (and often during the day) fully understanding that great sacrifice of His. It shred me inside and removed my ego (not entirely, but all the BS ego). I became very "at peace", "resigned", leaving my life up to his Will and direction, and all that sort of thing, and honoring it. I'm such a different person than I was just a few years ago. I'm so unattached (so to say) from my own wants/etc, and from all the trappings of this life. I could elaborate/ramble on, but I am sure you understand me.
And only about a year ago I had a near death experience where I had a conversation with a spiritual being from the afterworld (not sure who exactly, could've been the Holy Spirit per se), but it told me what I had to do in this life.....I'm still struggling to achieve that, I'm TRYING, but I'm not finding it. Still, I persist and keep my antenna tuned to "the ways", the humility to cede my will which is probably hindering my ability to find it.