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I have a Foxtel iQHD box but not a 4K one. But if I upgrade to a 4K box I'll need a 4K TV.

I never these problems as a kid watching our old wooden Panasonic TV that had legs.
We had the first colour tv from Philips,had no remote, had to get and turn the knob to change channel to the 4 other channels
 

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I have a Foxtel iQHD box but not a 4K one. But if I upgrade to a 4K box I'll need a 4K TV.

I never these problems as a kid watching our old wooden Panasonic TV that had legs.
I have a 4kTV I bought 6 months ago and the foxtel 4k box - but no 4k programming to watch
 
In all honesty, it's a miracle I'm still alive, still mentally functioning, able to hold down employment, and drag my self thru every day purely to reach the end of the day itself, let alone having dreams, aspirations, annoyances and pleasures in between the morning and the night of every day.

I was abandoned at birth, went thru orphanages and foster homes, lot of physical and psychological abuse, ran away eventually when i was 13 and was living on the streets till 18. Got a minimum wage job and started being able to support myself (tho barely). My girlfriend got r*ped and murdered when I was 21, and my fiance died in childbirth when I was 28, lost the baby too. Since, been just moving from town to town, job to job, people to people, always guarded, always mysterious, when I try to connect again I'm rejected or used, so I go back into the shell every so often. So, I have no family and no friends. Just myself. Trying to find love, be loved, etc, has been an ongoing curse. Hate to play the violin tho. But in terms of this thread topic, tho I'm living in a third or even fourth world, or subterranean world, psychologically and financially, tho residing in a first world country, the tiniest thing can feel like I'm dancing on the clouds....a smile from a young girl, a little bit of food after going hungry all day, a warm spot after being in the wind and rain all day, etc. I have learned so many tiny things are so beautiful and magical. Giving sustenance to my soul tho the bigger topics/areas in my life are being tortured on a spit in Hell.
 
In all honesty, it's a miracle I'm still alive, still mentally functioning, able to hold down employment, and drag my self thru every day purely to reach the end of the day itself, let alone having dreams, aspirations, annoyances and pleasures in between the morning and the night of every day.

I was abandoned at birth, went thru orphanages and foster homes, lot of physical and psychological abuse, ran away eventually when i was 13 and was living on the streets till 18. Got a minimum wage job and started being able to support myself (tho barely). My girlfriend got r*ped and murdered when I was 21, and my fiance died in childbirth when I was 28, lost the baby too. Since, been just moving from town to town, job to job, people to people, always guarded, always mysterious, when I try to connect again I'm rejected or used, so I go back into the shell every so often. So, I have no family and no friends. Just myself. Trying to find love, be loved, etc, has been an ongoing curse. Hate to play the violin tho. But in terms of this thread topic, tho I'm living in a third or even fourth world, or subterranean world, psychologically and financially, tho residing in a first world country, the tiniest thing can feel like I'm dancing on the clouds....a smile from a young girl, a little bit of food after going hungry all day, a warm spot after being in the wind and rain all day, etc. I have learned so many tiny things are so beautiful and magical. Giving sustenance to my soul tho the bigger topics/areas in my life are being tortured on a spit in Hell.
Jeezus GG.
I never know exactly when you are laying it on or when you are being legit so I wont even think about either trolling or sympathizing.

I will however say its in the wrong thread.

Your correct post here would be:
"Its a pain that I have to drive three suburbs away to a chemist that stocks the XXXL condoms I require"
 
Jeezus GG.
I never know exactly when you are laying it on or when you are being legit so I wont even think about either trolling or sympathizing.

I will however say its in the wrong thread.

Your correct post here would be:
"Its a pain that I have to drive three suburbs away to a chemist that stocks the XXXL condoms I require"
That's my life story. It gets to me and I open up among strangers (internet). I should stop tho and focus on being light hearted on here more often. As for condoms never use them, they dont make them big enough for me
 
**** 4K.
Im a musician...
When are people going to start paying attention to the shocking decline of the past 20 years to our standard of audio in music ?????
We are such visually dominated creatures.

Audio quality peaked with this

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In all honesty, it's a miracle I'm still alive, still mentally functioning, able to hold down employment, and drag my self thru every day purely to reach the end of the day itself, let alone having dreams, aspirations, annoyances and pleasures in between the morning and the night of every day.

I was abandoned at birth, went thru orphanages and foster homes, lot of physical and psychological abuse, ran away eventually when i was 13 and was living on the streets till 18. Got a minimum wage job and started being able to support myself (tho barely). My girlfriend got r*ped and murdered when I was 21, and my fiance died in childbirth when I was 28, lost the baby too. Since, been just moving from town to town, job to job, people to people, always guarded, always mysterious, when I try to connect again I'm rejected or used, so I go back into the shell every so often. So, I have no family and no friends. Just myself. Trying to find love, be loved, etc, has been an ongoing curse. Hate to play the violin tho. But in terms of this thread topic, tho I'm living in a third or even fourth world, or subterranean world, psychologically and financially, tho residing in a first world country, the tiniest thing can feel like I'm dancing on the clouds....a smile from a young girl, a little bit of food after going hungry all day, a warm spot after being in the wind and rain all day, etc. I have learned so many tiny things are so beautiful and magical. Giving sustenance to my soul tho the bigger topics/areas in my life are being tortured on a spit in Hell.

I've worked with a number of people with an upbringing like yours. You've survived something monumental. You've become what a select few do and that is a shaman.

A shaman is someone who has seen hell and able to bring joy and comfort to others, who share knowledge who care and like to make people happy. Truly amongst the world's most beautiful people

It's not out of selfishness they do. It's not to aliviate thier own suffering by helping others more fortunate than them. It's truly about they don't want anyone but maybe James hird, suffer like they have.

Souls are not born. They are risen from the cracks of broken people
 

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In all honesty, it's a miracle I'm still alive, still mentally functioning, able to hold down employment, and drag my self thru every day purely to reach the end of the day itself, let alone having dreams, aspirations, annoyances and pleasures in between the morning and the night of every day.

I was abandoned at birth, went thru orphanages and foster homes, lot of physical and psychological abuse, ran away eventually when i was 13 and was living on the streets till 18. Got a minimum wage job and started being able to support myself (tho barely). My girlfriend got r*ped and murdered when I was 21, and my fiance died in childbirth when I was 28, lost the baby too. Since, been just moving from town to town, job to job, people to people, always guarded, always mysterious, when I try to connect again I'm rejected or used, so I go back into the shell every so often. So, I have no family and no friends. Just myself. Trying to find love, be loved, etc, has been an ongoing curse. Hate to play the violin tho. But in terms of this thread topic, tho I'm living in a third or even fourth world, or subterranean world, psychologically and financially, tho residing in a first world country, the tiniest thing can feel like I'm dancing on the clouds....a smile from a young girl, a little bit of food after going hungry all day, a warm spot after being in the wind and rain all day, etc. I have learned so many tiny things are so beautiful and magical. Giving sustenance to my soul tho the bigger topics/areas in my life are being tortured on a spit in Hell.

 
I have too many options with what to do with my life, and I keep failing to commit to any long-term plans.

Society no longer 'forces' me to get a boring career to pay for an ungrateful family... but what else to do with my time and money?

Movies are practically free but I find most of the new ones to be so full of SJW programming that I don't even bother.

Travel is cheap and I can live anywhere but part of me just wants to call Australia home.

I know that mass immigration is harming this country but I have come to accept that people are too afraid to be called 'racist' to even acknowledge what is going on in their own minds, let alone speak out publicly.

That is about all.
 
I've got three tvs and 2 DV recorders (and no life :D). Most remotes have the up and down volume button on the left and the up and down channel button on the right, but one of my tvs, a cheap Hisense, is opposite, and it fa'rks me up every time. Why do the worst things happen to me?
 
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In all honesty, it's a miracle I'm still alive, still mentally functioning, able to hold down employment, and drag my self thru every day purely to reach the end of the day itself, let alone having dreams, aspirations, annoyances and pleasures in between the morning and the night of every day.

I was abandoned at birth, went thru orphanages and foster homes, lot of physical and psychological abuse, ran away eventually when i was 13 and was living on the streets till 18. Got a minimum wage job and started being able to support myself (tho barely). My girlfriend got r*ped and murdered when I was 21, and my fiance died in childbirth when I was 28, lost the baby too. Since, been just moving from town to town, job to job, people to people, always guarded, always mysterious, when I try to connect again I'm rejected or used, so I go back into the shell every so often. So, I have no family and no friends. Just myself. Trying to find love, be loved, etc, has been an ongoing curse. Hate to play the violin tho. But in terms of this thread topic, tho I'm living in a third or even fourth world, or subterranean world, psychologically and financially, tho residing in a first world country, the tiniest thing can feel like I'm dancing on the clouds....a smile from a young girl, a little bit of food after going hungry all day, a warm spot after being in the wind and rain all day, etc. I have learned so many tiny things are so beautiful and magical. Giving sustenance to my soul tho the bigger topics/areas in my life are being tortured on a spit in Hell.
What healing methods have you used?
 
What healing methods have you used?
I have been entirely unhealed thruout, from the start till now. I have taken solace in things like movies or music or sport or sex, to keep preoccupied in other things, but it's not like it heals or anything. I am just so very HARD that I can take such an incessant beating from life/god/people. Just keep getting up to take more pounding...expected, it never abates.

It's not even like I'm immune to hurt, or acclimated or impervious to tiny hurts. Everything hurts, constantly; small things or great things. I just bottle everything inside and I'm Hell in there, but on the outside I put on facades all the time -- method acting down pat.

That's a major miracle in itself....how I can among people be the life of the party, engage all kinds of people from various ages and walks of life, have them all rapt in a chat, have them all laughing, imitating things I say or how I do things, having them confide their lives and secrets to me, so trustworthy, so calm and collected, so at peace, non-judgmental, they gravitate to me.

But they always skim over me, I'm always left alone, rejected, neglected, pushed aside, used for whatever purpose, SUSTENANCE for them. It's like I am here purely to prop humanity up, to give them love, mercy, forgiveness, confirmation, direction, and that's all I'm here for....for them....but I'm not allowed to HAVE anything, to partake, to LIVE. Like a gift from God, persecuted and downtrodden just to give them life. I don't belong here, I'm not one of you -- it's been made apparent to me millions of times, constantly every day. I have never witnessed/heard anything like this from anyone else or stories around the world. It's like I am Atlas himself.

I could tell you thousands of stories of the things I have been thru and no one would believe it, or just cannot fathom how all that can happen to a person on and on thruout their life. I don't want to start getting into the stories, I've mentioned many from time to time in past threads, that I deleted and edited out that caused Chief to remove me as mod, and I've mentioned some in threads since then that exist around the board. Horrible things like being tied up and shot at with an air gun by brothers, r*ped by brothers/priests, bashed and broken arms/legs by dads, nuns who made me eat dirt and stones, so many days of harsh punishment with thick leather straps or switches at the convent/orphanage, moms who deliberately killed a pet I'd taken to just to make me suffer, moms who locked me up in closets and let me starve for days, moms who dropped me off at distant corner store to buy something and then fled in the car, leaving me waiting there all night for them to never return, me basically just fleeing for my life and subsisting on the streets as a kid, otherwise abandoned at some faraway town during some fake trip with the family, etc.

I guess I want to blow my brains out, but such a severe survival instinct.
 
In all honesty, it's a miracle I'm still alive, still mentally functioning, able to hold down employment, and drag my self thru every day purely to reach the end of the day itself, let alone having dreams, aspirations, annoyances and pleasures in between the morning and the night of every day.

I was abandoned at birth, went thru orphanages and foster homes, lot of physical and psychological abuse, ran away eventually when i was 13 and was living on the streets till 18. Got a minimum wage job and started being able to support myself (tho barely). My girlfriend got r*ped and murdered when I was 21, and my fiance died in childbirth when I was 28, lost the baby too. Since, been just moving from town to town, job to job, people to people, always guarded, always mysterious, when I try to connect again I'm rejected or used, so I go back into the shell every so often. So, I have no family and no friends. Just myself. Trying to find love, be loved, etc, has been an ongoing curse. Hate to play the violin tho. But in terms of this thread topic, tho I'm living in a third or even fourth world, or subterranean world, psychologically and financially, tho residing in a first world country, the tiniest thing can feel like I'm dancing on the clouds....a smile from a young girl, a little bit of food after going hungry all day, a warm spot after being in the wind and rain all day, etc. I have learned so many tiny things are so beautiful and magical. Giving sustenance to my soul tho the bigger topics/areas in my life are being tortured on a spit in Hell.

May the Force be with you, brother.
 

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