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This has been my experience. I snap out of it, but over the last few years have been prone to fall back into it on a hair trigger or over nothing.

I feel like that i know the events which derailed me and feel like i a. Need to go through this suffering and depression because some genuinely s**t things happened (i feel transmutation is occurring) and b. I have something against them, they are over prescribed and their efficacy is not the craic.

Know this things can be going well then the slightest thing can bring the show crashing down. Don't really know how you can help that.
 
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No i dont. I understand how helpful swimming and diet are but these are strategies to get you through standard s**t times OR general feel good maintenance.

It is very hard to feel motivated to do these great things when you feel paralysed and like your body is made of lead.

I am hoping this passes. Like last year was hell, i had uninvited visions of my friend and suicide. This year the visions aren't as often. I am trying ride it out and hopefully will come out the other side a better person.

Nothing against people that take anti dees but i do not want to take them.

Over the past two years i have had gone through phases of doing lots of yoga. I can feel this phase coming on now. Yoga helps.

I get that. But is there one thing you want to do each day. Just one. Just do that. Commit to doing that for 10 minutes and the rest of the day is yours. If your working just take a sickie if possible or auto pilot it and look forward to something else.

Long term (maybe don't do what some on this board have done and make a crazy decision you can't get out) of but try have a carrot you can look forward to. If there is something you have your heart set on do it.

And if you need a day off just take one.
 

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No i dont. I understand how helpful swimming and diet are but these are strategies to get you through standard s**t times OR general feel good maintenance.

It is very hard to feel motivated to do these great things when you feel paralysed and like your body is made of lead.

I am hoping this passes. Like last year was hell, i had uninvited visions of my friend and suicide. This year the visions aren't as often. I am trying ride it out and hopefully will come out the other side a better person.

Nothing against people that take anti dees but i do not want to take them.

Over the past two years i have had gone through phases of doing lots of yoga. I can feel this phase coming on now. Yoga helps.
you have a sick mind
if i said you could do something that would make feel better in 2 minutes would u believe me ?
 
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Mark Corrigan: Don't be ridiculous. They're homey. They're for wiping up mess.

Jeremy Usborne: Yeah, man mess. Why do you think they're called Man-Size?

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Find a stretch were you can sprint
sprint till ya cant
toxic mind will be dead for a while
I have heard of extreme exercise is very helpful for depression.

I am feeling better, going to the gym, yoga, back into making art and see hope for the future.

Bunkdar, if you see no hope for your future and your body feels like it is made of lead and you just want to die then it is not possible to go for a sprint, as helpful as i am sure this would be. You would need people to "weekend at Bernies" your sprint.

There is a difference between severe / clinical depression and feeling like s**t / having a bad day.

I know how to deal with general obstacles and rough days. Yes, exercise is super helpful.
 

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I have heard of extreme exercise is very helpful for depression.

I am feeling better, going to the gym, yoga, back into making art and see hope for the future.

Bunkdar, if you see no hope for your future and your body feels like it is made of lead and you just want to die then it is not possible to go for a sprint, as helpful as i am sure this would be. You would need people to "weekend at Bernies" your sprint.

There is a difference between severe / clinical depression and feeling like s**t / having a bad day.

I know how to deal with general obstacles and rough days. Yes, exercise is super helpful.

I don't think feeling heavy is a no hope thing
I spent the last 2 few weeks mostly bed ridden from fatigue and apathy (thank damn for netflix)
Relatively young myself but my body hurt from lying down 4 extended periods
24/7 i carry bricks on my shoulders

you can get a similar effect from breathing deep and fast as you can for 1 minute
 

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Sorry to hear this mate.

Feeling tired, heavy and lethargic isn't a "no hooe thing". However seeing a future of empty hopelessness is depression. And can hit anyone.

Yes thank god for netfix and stan

Hey when binge watching stuff dont make the mistake i one did. I watched the darkest s**t hooruble thing on youtube.

My bf explained it was feeding a temp reward thing in my brain but ultimately sending me down a very deep spiral of despair and depression.

It was about prople on the internet getting tricked and then murdered.
 
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This may be the wrong thread but here goes.

Boxing Day lunch at my grandmothers place went from a regular day to watching someone choke to death right in front of me.

I am talking to friends and family about it and may speak to a counsellor next week as my main issue is I am struggling to get the image out of my head. I was sitting across from my grandmothers partner who I have known for as long as I can remember and feel like I watched the life leave his eyes while simply eating his lunch :(

Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with seeing something like that from experience? It hasnt effected my dreams yet but it is all I can see in my head all day. I assume it will probably just take time but if anyone has any suggestions I am all ears.
 
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This may be the wrong thread but here goes.

Boxing Day lunch at my grandmothers place went from a regular day to watching someone choke to death right in front of me.

I am talking to friends and family about it and may speak to a counsellor next week as my main issue is I am struggling to get the image out of my head. I was sitting across from my grandmothers partner who I have known for as long as I can remember and feel like I watched the life leave his eyes while simply eating his lunch :(

Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with seeing something like that from experience? It hasnt effected my dreams yet but it is all I can see in my head all day. I assume it will probably just take time but if anyone has any suggestions I am all ears.

Mate, I'm so sorry. I'd go to see someone as soon as possible and please don't put it off. I watched my dad die in front of me in a pretty horrific way and it has ****ed me. Be kind to yourself.
 

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This may be the wrong thread but here goes.

Boxing Day lunch at my grandmothers place went from a regular day to watching someone choke to death right in front of me.

I am talking to friends and family about it and may speak to a counsellor next week as my main issue is I am struggling to get the image out of my head. I was sitting across from my grandmothers partner who I have known for as long as I can remember and feel like I watched the life leave his eyes while simply eating his lunch :(

Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with seeing something like that from experience? It hasnt effected my dreams yet but it is all I can see in my head all day. I assume it will probably just take time but if anyone has any suggestions I am all ears.
That is traumatic - maybe see a gp and see if he can refer to you to someone that specialises in trauma - if they don't know someone get a referral to a psych. IU know a great CBT psych in the Bayside (melbourne) if she can't help you, she will know someone that can.

PM if you want details.
 
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This may be the wrong thread but here goes.

Boxing Day lunch at my grandmothers place went from a regular day to watching someone choke to death right in front of me.

I am talking to friends and family about it and may speak to a counsellor next week as my main issue is I am struggling to get the image out of my head. I was sitting across from my grandmothers partner who I have known for as long as I can remember and feel like I watched the life leave his eyes while simply eating his lunch :(

Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with seeing something like that from experience? It hasnt effected my dreams yet but it is all I can see in my head all day. I assume it will probably just take time but if anyone has any suggestions I am all ears.

Sympathies. Very sad nothing you can do.

Suggestion: Take 48 hours and do whatever you want to do. Try and step back and process. Then another 48 hours do what you have to do and if anyone needs help help. Then seek support whatever you feel is needed.
 
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I’ve been feeling very agitated and sad lately too. I’m stuck at work with no support and continually get bombarded with direction and training. I sit in an office alone.

I feel so sad waking up each morning becoming robotic, that I just get up and do it. I don’t want to do it, I rather stay in bed and wake up when I’m ready.

I’ve never stood up for myself and I wouldn’t know how too. I just agree and nod to every barking order given to me.

I’ve had two jobs in twelve months because I haven’t been able to stand up for myself and defend my arguments.

I don’t know what to do, I’ve always been a confident person now I just dread confrontation and drama, I rather not come across it.

I fear this will consume me and I will not be able to hold down a job for long because I distance myself from drama hence why I get walked over.

Things come as a challenge for me, and I fear doing something wrong will just draw me more angst.


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No i dont. I understand how helpful swimming and diet are but these are strategies to get you through standard s**t times OR general feel good maintenance.

It is very hard to feel motivated to do these great things when you feel paralysed and like your body is made of lead.

I am hoping this passes. Like last year was hell, i had uninvited visions of my friend and suicide. This year the visions aren't as often. I am trying ride it out and hopefully will come out the other side a better person.

Nothing against people that take anti dees but i do not want to take them.

Over the past two years i have had gone through phases of doing lots of yoga. I can feel this phase coming on now. Yoga helps.
Is it always worse around Christmas time ?
 

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Is it always worse around Christmas time ?
No.

I am basically upset over a few events. That would make anyone depressed. Nothing to do with Christmas.

Speaking of Christmas, at a Christmas party (where i was having lots of fun) , this guy was trying to convince me to go on anti dees.

It was super annoying. Luckily another guy, who is more on my wavelength said, people are allowed to be sad over things.

We have created a eorld whereby if you're not "zipperty doo-dahhing" then there is something wrong with you and you need to be on brain altering substances every day for the rest of your life.

*, what is wrong qith taking the time to work through things and come out perhaps a better person.

Maybe people feel s**t for reasons like unfulfillment, or living an unexamined life.

I am not saying that people should never seek pharmaceutical intervention but we also need to look at our lives and examine them. Confront our dark sides, notice it amd make efforts to do better.


End rant

And by no means is this rant directed at the poster who i quoted.
 
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I'd been on antidepressants for over 2 years. Created all other kinds of medical problems, getting off them was a great decision. For me I still felt depressed but I just couldn't act or express my emotions, I'd want to cry but just physically couldn't, basically just felt numb.
 
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