Health Depression

[Daniel6]

I haven’t worked in 6 years and found out 2 weeks before Christmas that my accounting license (Public Practice certificate) was revoked. 2 weeks before Christmas I had my 50th birthday. No life, no direction, no job prospects and my physical and mental health is up shit creek.

7 years ago, I had a mental breakdown and one afternoon I received a very triggering e mail from my new boss and I just stopped caring about anything as I had enough and just snapped. Total breakdown.

I walked into his office and started verbally attacking him with inappropriate language and threatening behaviour and have been battling depression since. I was charged with misconduct and have not worked since.

In September I applied for my accounting license back as I had a very good 18 months working with my psychologist but 2 weeks before Christmas, I received an email from them saying they feel I am still a threat based on my misconduct.

Now, my full on depression is back as I feel useless, a burden on my family and never going to work again. I play out my suicidal every night I go to sleep as I have no job, no money, a broken down car, a shit life and a partner who is sick if listening to me and basically told me to stop talking about it.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I haven’t worked in 6 years and found out 2 weeks before Christmas that my accounting license (Public Practice certificate) was revoked. 2 weeks before Christmas I had my 50th birthday. No life, no direction, no job prospects and my physical and mental health is up shit creek.

7 years ago, I had a mental breakdown and one afternoon I received a very triggering e mail from my new boss and I just stopped caring about anything as I had enough and just snapped. Total breakdown.

I walked into his office and started verbally attacking him with inappropriate language and threatening behaviour and have been battling depression since. I was charged with misconduct and have not worked since.

In September I applied for my accounting license back as I had a very good 18 months working with my psychologist but 2 weeks before Christmas, I received an email from them saying they feel I am still a threat based on my misconduct.

Now, my full on depression is back as I feel useless, a burden on my family and never going to work again. I play out my suicidal every night I go to sleep as I have no job, no money, a broken down car, a shit life and a partner who is sick if listening to me and basically told me to stop talking about it.

Awww mate! Keep talking please

 

[WCErevival]

Ever thought of trying another form of work? Even if its just something part time to get back into the groove.

 

[Daniel6]

Awww mate! Keep talking please

Thank you.

The hardest part is when you can sit down and think and that’s usually during the day Monday to Friday. Having the house to yourself and you start to think.

 

[Daniel6]

Ever thought of trying another form of work? Even if its just something part time to get back into the groove.

If only it was that simple. I’ve explored those positions. Full time, part time, volunteering, social groups. Depression and social anxiety stop people from taking that step and going out of your comfort zone.

And yes, I have applied for many jobs and get the same answer, no. Or no answer at all.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Thank you.

The hardest part is when you can sit down and think and that’s usually during the day Monday to Friday. Having the house to yourself and you start to think.

This is a safe space here. Talk as much as you need. There is plenty of support here with people who have either felt like you or have over come it but whatever you do please….. Keep talking bc you matter

 

[Daniel6]

This is a safe space here. Talk as much as you need. There is plenty of support here with people who have either felt like you or have over come do it but whatever you do please….. Keep talking bc you matter

Thank you. Appreciate your olive branch.

 

[MP_]

Thank you.

The hardest part is when you can sit down and think and that’s usually during the day Monday to Friday. Having the house to yourself and you start to think.

Do you have any hobbies you can do just to enjoy for a while and give your mind a rest. I paint and listen to music to give my mind a rest from telling how shit a person I am.

 

[Daniel6]

Do you have any hobbies you can do just to enjoy for a while and give your mind a rest. I paint and listen to music to give my mind a rest from telling how shit a person I am.

Hobbies? No, not really but football certainly does help, and it gives me something to look forward to during the week. A reason to continue on this journey.

Last night was a relatively bad night, lots of bad feeling and lack of future. The negative thoughts were very high and the future seems nonexistent, but today was a good day.