Society & Culture How Have You Changed Over the Years?

[CatMarie]

Cougar alert!!

Well , that has left me speechless, ( for a little while ) How do you know that I don't have an old, wise head on young shoulders? Hmm ?

 

[exe ex machina]

Well , that has left me speechless, ( for a little while ) How do you know that I don't have an old, wise head on young shoulders? Hmm ?

Either way is good for me

 

[Barry_Badrinath]

At 20 years of age you worry about what about people think of you.

By 40 years of age you stop caring what people think of you.

And by 70 years of age you realise that nobody actually is thinking of you.

Edit: that was in reply to Catfish Alley

 

[St 07]

Used to really fap it hard to extremely perverse content, and now I vastly prefer the amateur stuff

 

[HBF]

Used to really fap it hard to extremely perverse content, and now I vastly prefer the amateur stuff

 

[TheFreshBanana]

Used to really fap it hard to extremely perverse content, and now I vastly prefer the amateur stuff

2G1C?

 

[DT2000]

I'll bump this thread in 20 years and post my jaded rantings then

"til then, life is ****ing great!!!

 

[The King!]

One little thing i used to be able to sleep in longer without caring

 

[TheFreshBanana]

I'm Peter Pan. I never grow up.

 

[La Dispute]

Was always good-looking, intelligent, funny, rich, good with women, well travelled, cultured, socially conscious and philosophical but couldn't cook a quiche.

These days I can cook a quiche.

 

[Dugdale2Dwyer]

Suffered silently with depression for years until it tipped me over the edge, but thankfully I came out the other side, now I rarely lose my temper, never get depressed, things don't bother me much at all.

 

[The King!]

GG used to hate everything

 

[Dazb86]

I'm much less wild than I was in my teenage years that's for sure.

 

[exe ex machina]

GG used to hate everything

Oh make no mistake about it....if there was a choice of "like" or "dislike" i'd dislike everything instead.

 

[The King!]

Oh make no mistake about it....if there was a choice of "like" or "dislike" i'd dislike everything instead.

Oh thought you were super cheerful, illusion blown

 

[exe ex machina]

Oh thought you were super cheerful, illusion blown

I cheerfully hate and dislike everything, and I regretfully love and like everything.

There's logic in that, but don't go looking for it....you'll go mad.

 

[HugeJohnson]

I believe I'm changing and growing all the time. I was always shy and quiet as a kid and in some respects I am still quiet but I would not label myself as shy anymore. I was devoid of confidence and direction in life and frequently daydreamed of suicide and how I was going to do it. I resented my step mother for the physical abuse she dealt me as a child such as force-feeding and smashing my face and the way she continues to speak to me as though I'm an inconvenience. In a sense I still resent her, but I no longer feel the desire to cause pain towards her. I used to picture her strapped to a chair and see myself punching her to the point where I would be hurting more than she. But I have never said a bad word to her and I never will. All she deserves is pity that she feels so misguided about herself and her importance and such infuriation to the point of actual violence. I feel as though for those experiences I have grown a great respect and compassion towards others and would not stoop to those lows for the knowledge of what they can do to a person.

Drug use has changed my way of thinking dramatically. I used to be totally against drugs as a kid (I think everyone is for a while) because everyone told me they were bad. I am unsure if they have changed me for the better or for worse. One experience in particular has had a profound impact on my life. One night at home last year I consumed 40 mushrooms and experienced ego-death. I was totally stripped back of everything I had built myself up to be and who I was and had an almost enlightening outer body experience which opened my eyes up to a lot of things I had not seen or felt before. It was one of those moments where you realise you will never think the same way again.

For about 6 months after that I was severely depressed, even more so than I already had been prior to that. (I had been dealing with depression since about the age of 12 - so 8 or 9 years) Looking back on it now I think in those 6 months I was struggling to comprehend what had happened in my mind that night and how to process it. There were nights were I cried in bed from night till morning without reprieve, then going to work with no sleep but I was not tired at all, I was so twisted up in sadness that I had lost sense of all other emotions.

One night around February something clicked in my mind like a light switch was flicked on and I suddenly felt on top of the world. I realised not to take everything seriously, only that in which I deemed important enough. I woke up to the fact that I was in control of my own emotions and thoughts and the only thing that could make me better was my own mind and line of thinking. I suddenly craved to be alive and enjoy the experience of life while I am still able to, and not to be afraid of or to welcome death upon me. I am comfortable in the fact that death is a part of the natural order of the world and it will come in time to everything. The worries I had about getting a career and not being successful or not doing what other people such as family expect of me now seem laughable to me, the fact that I had dug myself in to that hole. I am living right now, possibilities are possibilities and should not cause stress or worry before they occur. And when they do, that is life.

 

[HugeJohnson]

Also I never used to like tomato sauce on my chips until a couple of months ago and now I love it.

 

[La Dispute]

Please tell me more about ego death.

I'm heading towards enlightenment at the moment and I reckon the dissipation of my ego could well be one of the steps.

 

[Howard Littlejohn]

The rest of me is bad, very very bad.

OK, you two ..... http://www.bigfooty.com/forum/threads/awkward-flirting-stories.831388/

 

[iDon]

Also I never used to like tomato sauce on my chips until a couple of months ago and now I love it.

Must have loved paragraphs at one point, because you hate them now.

 

[HugeJohnson]

Please tell me more about ego death.

I'm heading towards enlightenment at the moment and I reckon the dissipation of my ego could well be one of the steps.

It's such a difficult thing to describe without having felt it. Everything I thought I was, everything I thought I knew about myself and the world was just completely shattered. I remember lying there in my bed as I was coming up to it and my thoughts just started swirling around in my head, I had never head about ego death before, it wasn't until I was talking to a friend at work about this night that he told me of the term. All these things i had never even thought to consider before suddenly started entering my thoughts. I felt like I never really saw life for what it really is and was very naive in a philosophical sense. I have a family, I have to get a job and get money, and then I die. I felt powerless to the nature of the world and that made me feel powerless. Yet now I accept that I am powerless to the nature of the world and it feels so liberating. In the simplest possible way I can describe it, my concept of reality was completely changed.

 

[La Dispute]

It's such a difficult thing to describe without having felt it. Everything I thought I was, everything I thought I knew about myself and the world was just completely shattered. I remember lying there in my bed as I was coming up to it and my thoughts just started swirling around in my head, I had never head about ego death before, it wasn't until I was talking to a friend at work about this night that he told me of the term. All these things i had never even thought to consider before suddenly started entering my thoughts. I felt like I never really saw life for what it really is and was very naive in a philosophical sense. I have a family, I have to get a job and get money, and then I die. I felt powerless to the nature of the world and that made me feel powerless. Yet now I accept that I am powerless to the nature of the world and it feels so liberating. In the simplest possible way I can describe it, my concept of reality was completely changed.

I don't know if it's because I'm three j's deep or what but geez.

I think it's completely possible if you cultivate enough inner awareness.

 

[HugeJohnson]

Must have loved paragraphs at one point, because you hate them now.

Yeah I was in a stream of consciousness there I didn't really stop writing from when I started it and then just hit post instinctively. It resulted in your post which got you a couple of likes so far, you're welcome.

 

[exe ex machina]

There's a far better word for that than "ego death".

German word, weltschmerz