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If anyone needs an ear, PM me. I've definitely taken to BigFooty is low and lonely points in my life, and I'm very thankful this place exists. I'm online most days, mostly after 5pm. I'm just some bloke, but always happy to have a chat with anyone who needs one. Sometimes even just venting to someone who'll listen can help ease the dread.
 
Run n Spread said:
Why is everyone so judgmental?
fu** it I'll just post here. I'm worried about seeking treatment as I might actually fail. Literally I'll try get better and it might still go to sh*t.
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You will fail, an that's ok mate. Accept it and keep moving. Life is full of slip ups, u turns and mistakes. The redeeming character trait is to keep trying, striving, one step at a time.

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Sick of this shit. What's everyone doing tonight. Another sleepless night another day. Inow have to pick up some bullshit medication that probably won't work anyway. And queue an hour and a half because everyone thinks they have corona.
Sick of it all
 
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I'm not thinking clearly atm. This really is getting out of hand. While good to share and seek help I tend to just say the wrong thing and dig a deep whole for myself in other areas of life. I'm hitting pause for the weekend and sorting this shit out Monday. It's consuming me and making things worse. If need be I'll just sleep all weekend. A comment keeps weighing on my mind from someone. That I'm manipulative. Maybe I am but I'm not meaning to be. I'd rather just get on with life.
I get we all manipulate in good ways and bad in life meaning we try to influence situations can be for positive or sometimes selfish reasons. But I'm not trying to do that. I just want this handled as discreetly as possible.
I need to stop typing. This is doing my head in.
 
Still going good atm- during the day anyway- nights are always lonely like they always are.

But getting shit done, making lists, organising to see ppl (including ((ex)) workmates at a bar next week) and just trying to stay positive.



My next psych appt too isnt until next January and im looking forward to it, lol.
 
New meds are interesting. Almost kicked in right away. Had to go home and sleep yesterday afternoon. Just zonked me couldn't even count.

Got up at 10 pm and for the next 12 hours it was like I was on meth. 2 exercise sessions caught up with friend house cleaned checked emails. Crashed again but probably initial shock of it hitting my stomach bit that stuff was unbelievable.
 
Spoke too soon. Wore off took again as per script but now just flat. Can't think properly tired but can't sleep. Feel worse. Did feel good but my brain feels like concrete. Was bloody awesome for a while thou. Should've maybe taken 1 as a circuit breaker. Not sure this is good either
 

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Run n Spread said:
Spoke too soon. Wore off took again as per script but now just flat. Can't think properly tired but can't sleep. Feel worse. Did feel good but my brain feels like concrete. Was bloody awesome for a while thou. Should've maybe taken 1 as a circuit breaker. Not sure this is good either
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Probably need to go back to whoever prescribed them and let them know.
 
Run n spread I went to ED ( for the 4 th time this year) and they discharged me into hospital in the home program. They visit me every day and I’m finding it very supportive.
 
HomerThompson said:
Still in a shitty headspace this week. Working through routines, trying out stuff suggested by specialist. Its confronting and a little freeing at the same time. Weary but will keep on.
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It does get wearing have to find your own bubble. I'm fine if I keep to myself. Don't know about you.
Don't know if my state of mind but reckon someone tampered with my stuff while I was away from home. Just in a bad state of mind
 
Perth gal said:
Run n spread I went to ED ( for the 4 th time this year) and they discharged me into hospital in the home program. They visit me every day and I’m finding it very supportive.
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About to head to an appointment. Don't feel like dealing with a hospital team. Or been told I'm faking by them. I'll adjust the meds and get on with what I need.
 

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Shell said:
The absolute fu**... :confusedv1:
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It was in a report. It was because I was pretty lucid at the time and I can talk normally and they're only assessing a point of time having just met me.
Just trying to put together a plan but people who don't understand will dismiss or interfere and inadvertently make things worse.
Just can't think straight ATM with these meds and the last week and then having someone come after my stuff.
 
I'm not thinking. I can't think quickly or clearly. I've gone from anxious and high octane and sad to low unmotivated and a foggy depression. This must be what been on dope feels like. Just want to be by myself. Sick of people judging me or tampering with my stuff.
Just a low day. Just no energy whatsoever. Extremely tired. Need to re focus. I just want some peace and quiet and to get back living. Yet never seems possible. My stomach is killing me and my brain is cooked. I just want my life back and to think clearly to improve some things. I want to get up happy tomorrow but don't want another appointment where someone sits in judgement of me. Sick of it.
 
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What a **** up that was. Just had my appointment right on when the meds kicked in. Just ended up talking shit for half hour. Then wore off and I couldn't be bothered speaking any more. Took a sleeping pill to settle me and am going to bed. Tired of medication. Should just stick to a few un watered down drinks of a night.
Maybe when I'm up to it I'll try an escort as some therapy. Recommend any good ones shell.
What else I should do is really get stuck into some study and broaden my understanding of the universe. We are all here for a time and purpose. Time to ignore the white noise and go to bed. Most people drift on a sea of their own delusion and that is what I'm doing.bTime for a 12 hour sleep good night everyone
 
Shell said:
Yeah- the men. :$

I've tried booking women three times (only for one hour, im not made of money) and they literally cancel at the last minute.

But hey maybe you'll have better luck. Perhaps dont book them so far in advance like Ive tried to.
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Man I really went to town on this last night. Should ease up on the medicine It served its purpose. Was meant to stabilise and help sleep. What it's doing is giving me a 5 hour burst than flooring me
Cancel at the last minute do they? They're like my Tinder dates. Could be one in the same
 

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