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[Magpie Girl]

I've been trying to move on all week but it's still niggling at me, it's hard for me to forgive people but I think this is just something for me to put to the back of my mind and look towards the future.

Really sucks though. ;(

Yes I am looking forward to tomorrow. A lot of nervous energy though which happens to me when I know I'm going to be entering a new environment.

You should have seen me before I went to the Copeland trophy courtesy of bigfooty last year. I was too nervous to even tie a tie!

I even dreaded winning the ticket (sorry MG) but that's what anxiety and Asperger's does to you. It makes you overthink things when it comes to different environments. But when I went it was the best feeling ever because I felt like I achieved something. (Thanks Magpie Girl )

I was sweating buckets and didn't want to go. But I still fronted up and did it and had a great time. So I need to harness that energy.

Glad you got yourself to that Copeland Temploar

I've been watching those very noisy old sports cars going round and round all afternoon. I'm fortunate to live opposite Albert Park Lake and have a great view!
I love the planes; they and the start of the race are my two favourites things, and tomorrow the jet flies over. Awesome.
Make sure you're there for that mate.

You can escape the crowds reasonably easily if you want to; there are plenty of grassy places to sit, so have fun Temploar.


And I'm really sorry that your trust has been violated. It may seem a small thing to some people but it's all about what's important to you and the values you choose to live your life by. You really are doing very well now, so hang in there. We've all got your back in here.

I love the way your write Temploar; you are so gifted in this and I wish you could find some niche where you could be doing the thing you love all day long.

 

[left at home]

I am on the waiting list for public housing. (Been on the list for 2 years) ... I called them up when I was supposed to move out of this place back in December last year. And they said I have "next to no chance" of getting anything soon because I am a single male. (That was his words)

Which is ****** up because I actually met with the housing minister Martin Foley back in 2016 for a TV interview and I was the first person in Australia to be on the new online register so it was kind of a big deal and he put his arm around me and said "don't worry buddy we will fix you up" --- but all politicians lie.

I'm even in a news article. You can read it here:
http://mobile.abc.net.au/news/2016-09-04/online-social-housing-register-launched-in-victoria/7812770

Even my cousin who has two sick kids can't get one because there are 10,000 refugees in front of her (apparently. Her words.)

It's really a joke, but this is becoming a political discussion so that's off topic right now.

The only option I have right now is shared housing which I absolutely cannot do because I have panic attacks on the train let alone living with strangers. It scares the shit out of me the thought of living with people I don't know! Ive been alone for 2 years now and im in my element.

E mail the bloke every week and let him know about his promise, and even e mail the opposition as well, plus the tv station or two. You never know what could happen with the right publicity

 

[Magpie Girl]

If it was me I would ask the case workers if they can contact her and also maybe put a note under her door as one last attempt.

Then I would walk away mate......not worth the head f%$k.

I'll try and steal my kids copy tonight while they are sleeping

P.S Magpie Girl I am more than happy to chip in for a replacement game for our fellow Pies supporter.

Anyone wanting to do this can PM me

 

[Temploar]

Actually you should write, great idea, she wrote a little story ages ago, doing so help her and the family a lot in how she feels.
I dont understand what you went through with your family, cause to us it was a relief to know what she had and how we could help her. It made it for us so much simpler and easier to understand. Aspergers is a gift and a frustration all rapt in one.
If l can help you, just pm me. I can be a good listener

Let's just say the stuff I went through with my mother has made people cry when I've told them. She still cannot come to terms with the fact that I am "defective" (in her own words)

She sees Asperger's as a curse and not a gift. And has said my brother is the "golden child" because he's the normal one apparently.

She's looked me in the eye and told me she will never love me as much as my brother because he never put her through the shit i put her through. Hearing that Absolutely killed me! And this is why we don't talk.

It's a long story that goes back to my father's death when I was 8 and me being manipulated by multiple people at a young age so I didn't know the truth and said things to her that were nasty because my grandparents made me believe it. And i was an even more disruptive child because of all that. And then my late diagnosis of Asperger's at 14 made her even more angry and has always regarded me as a loser. But it's more complicated than that and goes through a history of abuse. I have had to see about 30 counsellors in my life to get over it.

I was never able to understand the emotional stress I put her through because of my disability and being manipulated at the same time and she holds a grudge to this day.

Even though I realise now as I got older some of the things I did were wrong, I don't blame myself at all for it. And have apologised to her for hurting her at the time .but she doesnt accept my apology because she doesn't understand Asperger's and said I should have known what I was doing...??? (What ? At age 8-14... Are you kidding me mum?!)

But I'll end that story there because I'd be here til midnight

I'm okay talking about it because I've had to repeat it to so many professionals I'm kinda numb to it now, which is why I should write a book.

Well done for being the total opposite of her. I have massive respect for you.

 

[Temploar]

Anyone wanting to do this can PM me

Thanks MG. Youre the best!

 

[Temploar]

E mail the bloke every week and let him know about his promise, and even e mail the opposition as well, plus the tv station or two. You never know what could happen with the right publicity

I have been told to do this but I just don't have the energy to. With depression and it all it's easy to think that effort is futile but I am going to start to do it right now while I'm still in an energetic mood .

I've been told I should go on a current affair but I have no proof that he actually said he'd get me a place except for my own word. (Should have recorded it) !!

 

[left at home]

Let's just say the stuff I went through with my mother has made people cry when I've told them. She still cannot come to terms with the fact that I am "defective" (in her own words)

She sees Asperger's as a curse and not a gift. And has said my brother is the "golden child" because he's the normal one apparently.

She's looked me in the eye and told me she will never love me as much as my brother because he never put her through the shit i put her through. Hearing that Absolutely killed me! And this is why we don't talk.

It's a long story that goes back to my father's death when I was 8 and me being manipulated by multiple people at a young age so I didn't know the truth and said things to her that were nasty because my grandparents made me believe it. And i was an even more disruptive child because of all that. And then my late diagnosis of Asperger's at 14 made her even more angry and has always regarded me as a loser. But it's more complicated than that and goes through a history of abuse. I have had to see about 30 counsellors in my life to get over it.

I was never able to understand the emotional stress I put her through because of my disability and being manipulated at the same time and she holds a grudge to this day.

But I'll end that story there because I'd be here til midnight

I'm okay talking about it because I've had to repeat it to so many professionals I'm kinda numb to it now, which is why I should write a book.

Well done for being the total opposite of her. I have massive respect for you.

Shi. Don’t know how parents, relations can do that to a kid.
Lucky for us we got her diagnosis at four and was able to get her the right help quickly. It’s still a struggle for her, but been able to live at home with us has help her more than we possibly know.
One thing do small day trips when ever you can. Can get you out of the house so to speak

 

[Temploar]

Glad you got yourself to that Copeland Temploar

I've been watching those very noisy old sports cars going round and round all afternoon. I'm fortunate to live opposite Albert Park Lake and have a great view!
I love the planes; they and the start of the race are my two favourites things, and tomorrow the jet flies over. Awesome.
Make sure you're there for that mate.

You can escape the crowds reasonably easily if you want to; there are plenty of grassy places to sit, so have fun Temploar.


And I'm really sorry that your trust has been violated. It may seem a small thing to some people but it's all about what's important to you and the values you choose to live your life by. You really are doing very well now, so hang in there. We've all got your back in here.

I love the way your write Temploar; you are so gifted in this and I wish you could find some niche where you could be doing the thing you love all day long.

Thanks MG. I will go early, find a nice place to sit, put my headphones in and listen to the on track commentary.

Haha hasnt the noise around Albert Park decreased over the last few years though? They switched from V8 engines to V6 turbo with hybrid power back in 2014 and people say they sound like lawnmowers now .

I suppose you won't really know until tomorrow because the F1 cars don't come out on track until tomorrow for their practice session. You're probably hearing the V8 supercars or something right now which would be loud!

Thanks for all your support once again. And I will try my best for those that support me because the people of bigfooty gives me energy!

Also I know I was a bit of a nuisance poster back in the past but hey I was 14 when I joined. And no infractions for what? 2 years now?! Haha.

Love your work MG.

 

[Bad Horse]

I've been trying to move on all week but it's still niggling at me, it's hard for me to forgive people but I think this is just something for me to put to the back of my mind and look towards the future.

Really sucks though. ;(

Yes I am looking forward to tomorrow. A lot of nervous energy though which happens to me when I know I'm going to be entering a new environment.

You should have seen me before I went to the Copeland trophy courtesy of bigfooty last year. I was too nervous to even tie a tie!

I even dreaded winning the ticket (sorry MG) but that's what anxiety and Asperger's does to you. It makes you overthink things when it comes to different environments. But when I went it was the best feeling ever because I felt like I achieved something. (Thanks Magpie Girl )

I was sweating buckets and didn't want to go. But I still fronted up and did it and had a great time. So I need to harness that energy.

Like the others I would be assuming the game is gone. I think you are right, it is something to park back there and move. Give yourself permission not to care about him, or what he has done. You are not going to be able to get him to change his behaviour, he is beyond that. Believe me, I got into some ****ed up places with people who I actually cared about hoping something positive could happen by a miracle. It's ok to walk away and chalk it up to experience.

Always take the chance to remember how far you have come too. You are achieving a shedload every day. Enjoy the grand prix and get a good shot of Ricciardo if you can. He's the best for mine

 

[leon123]

Let's just say the stuff I went through with my mother has made people cry when I've told them. She still cannot come to terms with the fact that I am "defective" (in her own words)

My long term partner has AS, its certainly not a defect, rather, in so many ways an extremely positive attribute.

Re comment about "normal", blimey what is normal. Actually, if people describe themselves as normal.. they are kidding themselves.

Take care... and keep away from ice heads... they no good hey

 

[Temploar]

Shi. Don’t know how parents, relations can do that to a kid.
Lucky for us we got her diagnosis at four and was able to get her the right help quickly. It’s still a struggle for her, but been able to live at home with us has help her more than we possibly know.
One thing do small day trips when ever you can. Can get you out of the house so to speak

Everyone has said that to me. Why be a mother if you can't handle having kids? That means handing everything that could potentially come with them.

I understand she has had a hard life too, she emigrated to Australia when she was 4 and she was born in a hole in the ground (literally) in small farm in Croatia that nobody has ever heard of (Tatar varos).

Her parents still don't speak English after 50 years of being here and she had to do everything for them since age 7. And she still does everything for them.

She's got a lot of stress built up and holds a lot of grudges. But it's still not an excuse to take it out on her first born son.

Still it's all good, I can live without her. Thanks for giving birth to me but I'm already a better person than she ever will be.

I am not having kids until I know all my shit is in order and I am mentally and financially stable. And if it it's never the case then so be it. My kids don't deserve to grow up the way I grew up.

 

[Black_White]

I don't want to deal with him anymore to be honest. I've seen enough ice junkies to know that their personality can change in a second. Even I was shiting myself when he smoked it in front of us.

Yes I fronted up for a 4 day pass for $100 on concession. I was meant to go today but didn't feel up to it because there's no actual F1 on today.

Definitely going tomorrow and Saturday and Sunday! I will post plenty of pictures. Hopefully the weather is good.

Thanks mate, I am ******* nervous about crowds but it's just my brain in stimulation overload and I just have to calm down maybe have a shot of vodka before I get on the tram and then I should be right.

Would be nice if I had a friend to go with and I'd love to meet a stranger to talk F1 with but that just makes my anxiety worse for a short time but in the end I know it would be worth it which is what I have to keep focusing on!!!

So excited!

I’m not going to comment on your health problems, just to state that you have my support in your battles.
And the advice you have received about the junkie is the best advice you will ever get.
I will give you a warning on the GP as you have expressed an issue with large crowds.
Leave early, or late. Don’t leave at the “end of scheduled proceedings”.
It’s like a cattle run as they herd you back to the tram stop. Last time I remember someone baaaeeed “think Shaun the Sheep”. Naturally we all joined in!
But we were shoulder to shoulder which may be stressful for you.
Good luck, but most of all enjoy the racing.
Go Aussie go!

 

[Temploar]

I’m not going to comment on your health problems, just to state that you have my support in your battles.
And the advice you have received about the junkie is the best advice you will ever get.
I will give you a warning on the GP as you have expressed an issue with large crowds.
Leave early, or late. Don’t leave at the “end of scheduled proceedings”.
It’s like a cattle run as they herd you back to the tram stop. Last time I remember someone baaaeeed “think Shaun the Sheep”. Naturally we all joined in!
But we were shoulder to shoulder which may be stressful for you.
Good luck, but most of all enjoy the racing.
Go Aussie go!

Yep I plan to go early and just chill until things have died down for a bit.

I can't stand crowded trams or trains. I sweat too much due to the heat and anxiety.

Thanks for the advice!

Come on Danny Ric! I think he has the car to shake things up this year.

Been following testing and RBR are definitely closer to Mercedes than they were last year. I am quiietly confident that they can give it a shake up on a track like Melbourne where the engine power deficit isn't such a factor.

 

[Black_White]

Yep I plan to go early and just chill until things have died down for a bit.

I can't stand crowded trams or trains. I sweat too much due to the heat and anxiety.

Thanks for the advice!

Come on Danny Ric! I think he has the car to shake things up this year.

Been following testing and RBR are definitely closer to Mercedes than they were last year. I am quiietly confident that they can give it a shake up on a track like Melbourne where the engine power deficit isn't such a factor.

Hoping they’ve got their reliability problems sorted as well as their speed issues.
Would be fantastic for a Dan win. The country would go nuts.
Going to be hard to move me away from Foxtel this weekend.

 

[Temploar]

Hoping they’ve got their reliability problems sorted as well as their speed issues.
Would be fantastic for a Dan win. The country would go nuts.
Going to be hard to move me away from Foxtel this weekend.

Just some insight for you if you are keen:

From what I know and what has been evident from testing:

(Sorry for any spelling or context errors. I don't have time to correct how much I wrote.)

* Mercedes are still the quickest based on race and qualifying pace. Car is not perfect though as they may be having problems with their tyres. No new updates will be bought from the testing to Melbourne but people are saying they're plenty fast enough.

Talk has been they are a second quicker than everybody else based on race pace alone which seems like an exaggeration but would mean game over for everyone else.

Their new aero package is fantastic and their new chief of design, James Allison has said they have made a gain of 0.250s just by shortening the packaging around the engine alone. Which is a massive gain in F1 terms.

They have found even more gains on their already amazing engine. The word is out that it can produce 1000bhp at 50% thermal efficiency which is incredible. It's also proven to be the most reliable engine on the grid year after year and during testing they were able to complete the most laps out of anyone with no issues. This will be vital this year as teams are restricted to only use 3 engines for the entire year without taking any grid penalties.

I don't think anyone will be able to catch them on the higher speed tracks.

TL;dr Mercedes are still super duper fast. Only bad luck will beat them this year.

* Red Bull are a clear second to Mercedes. They are just as fast in the corners and the car looks very well planted and it's their best designed car for years, largely due to more involvement of Adrian Newey, F1s best designer. He took a break last year to work on the Aston Martin valkyrie and that's why the car performed largely like shit during the first half of 2017. Also the new aerodynamics rules caught them off guard and their windtunnel data didn't correlate with their track data because they failed to calibrate the new tyre width into their wind tunnel. This is why they started last season so slow.

Adrian then stepped back in during the second half of 2017 and red bull were closer to Mercedes than ever come the last race in Abu Dhabi. They look to have continued this form and see a clear second best. What holds them back is their Renault engine which is the 3rd most powerful engine (Mercedes > Ferrari > Renault > Honda) and they lack the "magic mode" for qualifying that the Mercedes and Ferrari which allows their engines to burn more oil for qualifying and use more fuel directly to the engine for an extra power boost. Mercedes has perfected this and this is why they're always at the top of the time sheets on qualifying.

The Renault engine has made improvements on the reliability side as that was their focus over the European winter break. They said they have focused on strengthening their parts to comply with the new 3 engine rule but still lack power compared to Mercedes. Which could be about 50bhp or more, which is significant. They also lack the "magic mode" of the Mercedes and Ferrari engines so red bull will theoretically be slower on the faster tracks where the Mercedes cars will speed away. Renault ran their engine de-tuned during testing and turned the engine up on the final day. Results were they still had some problems for the tuned engine but the engine rankings reliably for red bull during testing with no issues. The biggest problem is they're still using a part from 2016 (MGU-K) because they have continuously failed to get the technology right.

An update is meant to come mid season but by then it might be too late. This means that the Renault engine is about 5kg heavier than the other engines because of this older part. Which is a huge disadvantage.
Red Bull will only be able to compete on the slower and twistier tracks like Melbourne, Monaco, Singapore etc, as their aero is as good if not better than Mercedes in the slow speed corners since they have designed their car with the engine disadvantage in mind and focused more on what they can do which is the slower tracks. They will need to score maximum points on these kinds of tracks and take every advantage they can until a Renault engine update comes (if it ever does come because Renault has a rocky relationship with red bull lately and red bull may be switching to Honda engines next year)

TL;dr: Red Bull have built an amazing car and have the best chassis on the grid but the engine is still a donkey which means they will only have a chance when power is not a factor on the smaller tracks. Still they are in a much better position than they were at this time last year when they had a terrible car at the start of the year due to correlation issues. Also Renault has a history of promising things to red bull but never delivering. For example they said they had their MGU-K issue fixed for the first race of last year, it's still not fixed. The reliability seems generally ok though. Red Bull and Renault are both expected to bring upgrades to Melbourne and the signs are positive. Ricciardo and Verstappen are generally pretty upbeat .

* Ferrari seem to be the team that have lost a bit over the European winter. Despite topping the time sheets in pre season testing, it's rumoured that they pushed their car to the limit while everyone else didn't. This led to Haas (Ferrari customer team) within .0.300s of them in one day of testing and the Ferrari boss rushed to the Haas garage to ask them what fuel levels they were running on because if that's the case then the Ferrari has a lot of work to do.

Apparently they are losing a lot of time compared to red bull and Mercedes in the corners because they have changed their design philosophy for this year and opted for a longer wheelbase which means the car theoretically should be faster during the longer corners which is where they lost out to Mercedes last year, since their engine was only about 10-20bhp ofr the Mercedes engine and Ferrari had the better aero for the shorter corners. But by trying to match Mercedes it seems they've stuffed up somewhere and if they can't fix this they look to be a clear 3rd in the pecking order. Also all the Ferrari engines are blowing smoke out of them which is due to the Ferrari engines dumping oil as the oil burning regulations have changed this year due to Mercedes burning too much oil for their qualifying advantage. This means the Ferrari engine is not as efficient as it could be.

TL;dr: Ferrari are a clear 3rd at the moment unless they fix their issues before the race in Melbourne. Which don't seem to be too easy to fix if you listen to the experts. Something could be seriously wrong at Ferrari if this is the case.

None of the other teams are worth mentioning because they won't win a race this year.

Hope thst wasn't too long, as you can tell I followed every day of testing.

 

[BringouttheGimp]

Just threw up watching the Richmond build up on tv.. hate both clubs.. but **** I hope Richmond get thumped

 

[Dynamics]

Just threw up watching the Richmond build up on tv.. hate both clubs.. but **** I hope Richmond get thumped

A draw and permanent loss of form for all players involved would be very nice.

That said, I could never hope Carlton win anything except wooden spoons.

I metaphorically spit in their general direction.

 

[Temploar]

A draw and permanent loss of form for all players involved would be very nice.

That said, I could never hope Carlton win anything except wooden spoons.

I metaphorically spit in their general direction.

Why are you talking about the footy here? This is the formula 1 thread!

 

[Dynamics]

Why are you talking about the footy here? This is the formula 1 thread!

That's true, what was I thinking?

That was a quality post earlier, by the way.

 

[Temploar]

That's true, what was I thinking?

That was a quality post earlier, by the way.

Thanks. It only took like 30 mins to write. Imagine what I could do within an hour?

Someone get me a job at a news website? *Ahem hem* is anyone seeing this?

 

[Baltimore Jack]

How come the Liberal/National Coalition Government can afford a $65 Billion Tax Cut to Corporations but only this week cut a Bereavement Allowance for low income widows because they couldn't afford it?

 

[Temploar]

If anyone wants my concession ticket for the f1 for Saturday and Sunday then come get it from me .

Seriously lost all interest. Daniel Ricciardo got a 3 place grid penalty for doing absolutely **** all wrong.

Got no chance of winning now starting from at least 5th.

I only wanted to see him

Fuming.

 

[Temploar]

I only wanted to go to see him

I don't care about any other driver or any other team.

He and mark webber are my idols.

I used to have pictures of mark and the red bull cars on my wall when I was a child because I had nobody else to look up to.

I feel like I've met dan. I have dreamt about hanging out with him.

He's the only motivation I had to go and finally buy tickets because I wanted to see him do well in a good car .

I'd drink my own ******* piss if Ricciardo could win after most likely qualifying 3-5th and copping that penalty.

**** an overreaction.
I'm just going to pop a shit ton of sleeping pills and sleep all through tomorrow. What a ****ing shocking decision by the FIA. He didn't do anything wrong.

 

[left at home]

I only wanted to go to see him

I don't care about any other driver or any other team.

He and mark webber are my idols.

I used to have pictures of mark and the red bull cars on my wall when I was a child because I had nobody else to look up to.

I feel like I've met dan. I have dreamt about hanging out with him.

He's the only motivation I had to go and finally buy tickets because I wanted to see him do well in a good car .

I'd drink my own ******* piss if Ricciardo could win after most likely qualifying 3-5th and copping that penalty.

**** an overreaction.
I'm just going to pop a shit ton of sleeping pills and sleep all through tomorrow. What a ******* shocking decision by the FIA. He didn't do anything wrong.

Just go, you never know what will happen.

 

[Black_White]

I only wanted to go to see him

I don't care about any other driver or any other team.

He and mark webber are my idols.

I used to have pictures of mark and the red bull cars on my wall when I was a child because I had nobody else to look up to.

I feel like I've met dan. I have dreamt about hanging out with him.

He's the only motivation I had to go and finally buy tickets because I wanted to see him do well in a good car .

I'd drink my own ******* piss if Ricciardo could win after most likely qualifying 3-5th and copping that penalty.

**** an overreaction.
I'm just going to pop a shit ton of sleeping pills and sleep all through tomorrow. What a ******* shocking decision by the FIA. He didn't do anything wrong.

Mate, sometimes that’s just the way things go.
Do yourself a favour and go, soak up the atmosphere, have a conversation with other Dan fans about the injustice of it all.
Memories are made from these things.