PerfectFooty
Perfect Cell
It's nothing but a big act, has been for years. I've never been a happy person and i've never been a good person. I know you have perspective, sure i don't know s**t, but we're all different people. I've already been doing this for the last 20 years, so i don't see why it wouldn't draw out another 20. I can think of some positives, but they're all half positives because everything has a negative to it. Sure i might be loyal, but that's also made me guliable and too trusting. There is nothing more to me, self hating me is the only thing i ******* exceled at in life. There's nothing else next to my name despite how much i've applied myself in the past. I tried to draw, i can't. I tried to learn guitar, but i have s**t motorskills. Everything, literally every single thing i've applied myself too has been met with failure wether it be hobbies, games, relations or jobs. Yeah i know, i should set my sights higher but how can i when the track record is consistent as it is? I'm only here to fill space. So i should just accept mediocary and live with it. With me, there is no positive, there is no good, periodYou're definitely a specialist "you-criticiser" - you're a sterling example of it, in fact. Just so you know, I used to be like that. Things can, and do, shift - sometimes even when you don't put in a huge ton of effort, although effort certainly shifts the odds in your favour. At some point you'll get tired of this attitude towards yourself, and you'll start making efforts to shift it. I don't see you doing this for the next 20 years. I think there's more to you than this huge self-take-down. I've seen you on the Dees board for years - you're a good bloke. You won't agree with that, but I have one thing you don't have: the benefit of perspective. When you're in the thick of this, you don't know s**t - your brain is literally disabled at present from seeing possibilities and positives, but that doesn't mean they aren't there. Life can surprise even a committed career self-flagellator. We've all got a mix of good and bad, but nobody is just bad. See if you can think of half a dozen character traits or talents you have which don't suck. Let us know what they are. Seriously do it, or I'll be forced to do it myself - and you're not going to like me saying nice s**t about you! Take care, mate.